Sun. April 28

Some of the reasons why certain fitness/lifestyle changes won't work for me...

- The only way I'll eat salad is with caesar dressing. I mean, I get it on the side, but I don't do balsalmic vingarettes and all that disgusting shit, so that's never an option for dressing.
- I haven't had pop in over 2 years, so I can't "cut it out".
- Tea is nasty. I won't drink it and that's that.
- Greek yogurt is pretty nasty too. I've recently seen commercials for greek yogurt with blueberries, so I may give it a try, but otherwise, no.
- I don't do fish. VERY rarely, I'll have fish sticks or tuna or fish and chips. But that is a SUPER rare occurrence. So, salmon and other good fishy things are not going to happen.
- I also don't do quinoa, or kale, or melons, or cantaloupe, or pesto, or raw blueberries, or avocados, or lots of good fruits and veggies. I'm a fairly picky eater.
- I love meat, so vegetarians and vegans can go F themselves, cuz that's never gonna happen either.
- I rarely go out drinking, so I can't cut that back.
- And I don't drink coffee or any coffee based drinks, so no cutting back on that.
- I generally walk at least one way to work and I'm on my feet for several hours a day. It's not like I'm slacking off, sitting in a chair at a desk all day or anything.

I completely understand that I'm fair from perfect (both in my food choices and work out frequency), but just seems like whenever I found a list of "10 things to help you lose weight" or whatever, like at least half of them don't apply to me. It's just frustrating. I really wish weight loss was like 70% fitness and 30% food instead of vice versa.

Wed. April 24

Ok, so, this is the thing I wanted to talk about last night. Please note that I realize some of the things I'll mention are less than healthy, but I'm just "thinking" out loud.

So, I've noticed in the past several days my weight has crept up a bit. I'm not gonna pretend I have no idea why. I know I've been eating more than I should of "unhealthy" foods. It's the story of my life and it's a daily struggle. Recently though, I've been really putting more thought into... I don't even know what I would call this... low cal food days? Basically, they would be days every now and then where I would only eat a couple different types of food, but that's what I would eat for every meal. Like a day of only oatmeal low cal jello or cucumbers and yogurt or just granola bars. For example, the granola bars I eat are 110 cals each. 2000 cals (that should be eaten daily) divided my 110 is like 18 granola bars. So, on that day, I know my limit is like 18 or 19 granola bars and that's all I'll eat for that day. And the less bars I can eat, the fewer calories I'll have to burn. I know there are better ways to go about this, I just feel like I'm relapsing a little here and need a kick in the butt. Like, I'm one of those people who needs to see some initial results to get motivated. If I'm legit putting in the effort and seeing little to no results, that doesn't fly with me. I still have yet to have a day like this though mainly cuz my willpower sucks, but if I see another few pounds in the next week or so, I just might try one of my ideas.

In other news...
- I ordered a new digicam online and it should hopefully be here in several days
- I did about 40 squats at work (where no one could see me) cuz I was bored and it was kinda quiet
- I'm looking into buying some OTC sleep aids to use once in a while cuz I feel like my sleep schedule is getting a little outta hand
- I am anxiously awaiting a (most likely) $1500+ tax refund in the mail
- I can't wait for the weather to get better and for yogurt to go on sale sooooo bad
- Not sure if I mentioned this but the 5K I ran last year will be taking place on Oct 6 this year and I'm definitely going to be running it again, Hopefully I'll break my 31:30 time from last year.

K, that's it that's all. My right heel is feeling really tender, so I hope some sleep will make it feel better for the gym in the morning.

Tue. April 23

Why does this shit always happen to me? -.-

I won't go into a lot of detail; I'll just give you the gist. Went to see Kat Von D at Chapters, waited in line for 4 hours, did my make up and got a little dressed up, wrote her a nice fan letter while on line, got my chance to finally meet her, told her I'd seen her 4 times and I'd lost 25-30lbs since I last met her, she complimented me and said I looked good and we talked health and fitness for a few seconds, she signed me book, hugged me a few times, we took a pic and I went on my way. I checked the pic right after and the Chapter's employee had taken it landscape instead of portrait, but it still showed us from the waist up, so I could deal. But something didn't feel right, so I uploaded it to my laptop, looked at a bigger version of it and it's blurry. It's FUCKING blurry. I'm so pissed. I mean, you can make out who we are, but the pic is blurry and, somehow, we still both have visible red eye. Fuck my life. I completely understand that in the grand scheme of things, there are much worse things at could've happened, but this is heartbreaking and upsetting. And Lord knows when she'll be back in TO. So, this solidifies 2 decisions I'd been considering: I need (and will very soon purchase) and new digital camera and I'm getting a tattoo that says "Jinxed", cuz honestly, I'll feel like I am. If I end up with a blurry pic after spending $275 to see Ke$ha, I. Will. Be. Livid!

I do have something else I wanna talk about, but I feel like this'll just turn into a really long post and the 2nd topic isn't as important. Maybe I'll talk about it next time. I'll just research cameras before bed.

*bangs head against wall*

Me, in line, after doing my make up

When the pic is smaller, it doesn't seem so bad, but when it fills my laptop screen, it makes me want to crawl under my covers and sleep for a week. -.-

Sat. April 20

Well, I did it. At least, as much as I could cuz my heart rate monitor decided to be kind of a douchebag.

So, I was pretty tired fr most of the day and I don't really know why. Either way, I pulled through and completed "my plan" to the best of my ability. My HRM was giving me a little trouble during my work out and the concert by completely losing my rate and just showing 00, so I had to adjust it a few times and there are probably a handful of calories not accounted for. But anyway, this is how it broke down...

Walk to the gym - 208
Work out - 951 (I would guess there's probably about 25 cals unaccounted for here)
Walk home - 155
Walk/jog to the bus station - 71
Walk to the concert - 270
Concert - 483 (Again, several calories unaccounted for here)
Walk/jog back to the bus terminal - 304
Walk home - 54

2496. Woo! Not bad, all things considered. My feet were pretty sore after all of this, but no surprise there.

Anyway, I weighed myself using my friend's scale today and it said I was down about a pound, but I find his seems to be a little nicer to me and say that I'm lighter than my scale at home says. The difference isn't too much though, so it still gives me a good idea of my approximate weight. Not that I couldn't go a couple days without weighing myself, but it's nice to keep an eye on it. I will say though that today has been an I-want-to-eat-everything day. I want pizza, and pasta, and ice cream, and cake, and honey roasted peanuts, and chips, and chocolate, and gummies, and cheesy things. Oh God, I want everything. This is probably what eating fruits and veggies for lunch and dinners at work for 4 days does to me. Today, I've had chicken wings, poutine, chocolate chip cookies, peanuts, and mini pretzels. And the plan right now is to go to Boston Pizza for dinner. Gonna try to be good tomorrow, but I make no promises. That being said, I probably should be careful cuz I don't wanna eat a bunch of garbage tomorrow and then be gassy and bloated when I meet Kat Von D on Monday.

Alright, I think that's a long enough post for now. Later peeps. lol

PS - And no, I'm not in an eat everything mood cuz it's 420. I don't smoke pot. lol

Nov 24, 10 - The last time I saw KVD. Look, it's Kat Von D and Fat Von G. lol

Thu. April 18

I've got the next 4 days off. Thank God!

Ok, so, I have an idea. Not sure if I'll be able to do all of it, but I'll try. Since I have tomorrow off for a concert, and I don't really have any huge time restrictions, I'm going to go to the gym and try to do a 1000 cal burning work out. I figure I'll do my regular weight machines and benching and squatting, but I'll also have 2 sessions on the stairclimber (cuz it seems to really get my heart rate up) of like 25-30 mins each session. Once that is done, I'll come home, clean up and then catch a bus to head downtown. Once downtown, I'll walk from the bus terminal to the venue (35 mins), enjoy the show (definitely gonna be jumping around and getting sweaty) and then walk back to the bus terminal and go home. The only things that may not go as planned is not burning as many cals at the gym and catching the subway home instead (which is a closer walk to the venue). I'll see though. I'd really like to be able to do this and be wearing my heart rate monitor and see the results.

Um, I think that's all I have to say for now. I was down .2lbs today, but I feel like I'll probably be up tomorrow. :/

Wed. April 17

I really need to stop trying to write blogs when it;s so late and I'm tired.

Anywho, big-ish news. Not about my weight though. Kat Von D is coming to town on Monday for her book tour, so now I need to kiss ass and beg to try and get the day off from work. Hopefully I can though. Also, the last time I saw her, I was probably around my highest weight and, looking at pix, I look pretty bad. So, this'll be a chance to take a better pic with her. Probably about 30lbs lighter, at least.

That being said, I was actually down today. Like I think the lowest I've been in a while. So, I really did my best to eat well and I went to the gym after work. Really hoping for a little more loss.

Ok, that's it. Night.

Thu. April 11

Just another quick post.

My food intake between my last post and now has been pretty bad. I'm just gonna have to consider this an unplanned cheat day and be good for the next several days.

I was also kinda lazy and didn't get to the gym before my 8pm shift at work, so I made sure to go after. Now, I've had a sore throat since Tuesday night that turned into a cough (still with the soreness and add ear pain) yesterday and has carried through to today. I took some cough medicine and ibuprofen and decided I'd just see how long I could go and how much I could do at the gym. I did kind of have to push myself to finish 20 mins on the stairclimber, but about half way through my work out, either the meds or my endorphins really kicked in and my throat was hardly hurting. On top of that, I upped the weights on all my machines AND I found $5 on my way to the gym entrance. I think Karma was rewarding me for going in regardless of sickness.

So, I'm off to bed now. I don't feel as tired as I think I should be, but either way I'm just gonna get comfy and relax and set my alarm for 1pm (instead of 11am) and try to sleep as much as I can to try to make my throat better. Plus, any time that I'm sleeping is time that I'm not eating. haha

Wed. April 10

Pretty tired right now, but I figure I should post an update cuz it's been a while.

So, my birthday has come and gone. Did I put forth a valiant effort? Yes. Were there a few times I could've done more? Sure. Did I get down to my goal weight? Unfortunately not. I got fairly close though. And honestly, I'm like 10 or 11lbs lighter than when I went to Cuba. I have no doubt in my mind that I can get down to my BDay GW by the end of this month, but obviously, hopefully sooner.

The event to look forward to now is meeting Ke$ha. Yes, I was able to get a meet and greet package and I'll get to see her on June 5th. :) So, I'm just gonna keep doing what I'm doing; eating fairly well, working out smart and just taking it one day at a time. Hoping hoping.

18.6lbs to lose by June 5th

What a difference a couple years can make.

Tue. April 2

Finally "recovered" from my trip to the buffet.

I'm not gonna lie, I took a laxative to help with that, but I see it as a necessary evil. lol.
I didn't work out as much as I would have liked yesterday though. I walked to WalMart (25 mins) in the morning, picked up some Easter candy and healthy stuffs, then walked down the mall to check out Target. Didn't buy anything there though, but maybe the next time I need something or have more time to look around, I might. I came home and got a few more hours of sleep (cuz I had been up since 5am). After that, I just had some breakfast, got ready for work and headed out. I only burned about 1300 cals at work and then went to the gym afterward, despite being pretty tired. And, of course, 20 mins into my work out the laxative hit me. lol. I took it at 9:30pm, so I should been safe til after 3am, but apparently not. Whatever. I ended up finishing my work out, but a slightly shorter version of it. I still burned over 500 cals though.

Today, I was able to use my treadmill, but I was sorta watching my nephew at the same time, so I only got 20 mins out of it. Better than nothing, I guess. So, I have work again today and I'll be heading to the gym after that again. And that's all for now. :)

4.8lbs to go, 6 days til my Bday (4 days til my party)

Sun. March 31

Not sure what the scale is gonna say, but I actually feel ok. (That rhymed, hehe)

Well, you could say that a got in a little practice for Mandarin last night cuz I ate half an order of twisty bread and an entire medium thin crust pizza from Domino’s last night. I definitely felt full afterwards, but honestly not too uncomfortable. And my stomach didn’t bulge out like crazy. Kinda the same thing happened today. I ate about my usual foods and portions and was full, but not disgustingly so. I guess I’ll see what the scale says tomorrow.

Well, the plan for tomorrow is snatch up some half priced chocolate first thing tomorrow morning, along with good food for snacks and lunches as well. lol. Then sleep a bit more, treadmill, work, gym and then bed again. Hope all goes.

Me, after dinner.