Thursday, August 15, 2013

Wed. August 14

Time to stop putting this off and just blog.

I'd like to come at you with good news, but I have quite the opposite. I finally weighed myself after about a week of not stepping on the scale; partly out of fear and partly just couldn't be bothered. I knew I'd been bad cuz we'd had a few different types of cakes and goodies around the house for my sister's and nephew's BDays. So, of course, I indulged. I'd still be going to the gym and I didn't think it was too bad, but apparently, it was. I've put on like 6lbs. FML. Honestly though, I didn't notice a change in how my clothes fit before, but I feel like I do now. But anyway, what did I do after I weighed myself? I went to the gym and burned 1000 cals. And then after that? Had chicken fingers and poutine and went to a movie (where I got popcorn) and all kinds of wonderful healthy things. And then today, I was 95% ready to go to the gym, and then I just got lazy and decided not to go. But I didn't stay home and veg out in front of the TV. I cleaned my room a bit, watched my nephew, and just had water. But anyway, something needs to be done.

I'm really hoping that the time I take off of work for my eye surgery will help me get into some sort of routine and I'll come up with a meal plan for myself and all that good stuff. That being said, one thing that I was told was that I was going to have to take Gravol with my pain meds cuz they can do a number on your stomach. So, I may just end up eating crackers for several days. lol. But ya, all I can really do for now is try to be good, not skip work outs and keep reminding myself to take things one day at a time. And go through the "Thinspiration" folder on my computer a lot to help keep me going. Reading things like "think of your diet as a marriage; you can't cheat on it and expect things to be ok" or "even if it's not a great work out, it's still better than nothing". I'm also hoping I can kick things into overdrive and use Florida as motivation. Really, if I can just go like 10lbs lighter than I was last year, that'll be a victory for me. And that's actually pretty do-able in a healthy way.

Anywho, I'm just gonna go back to hating myself and trying not to binge on everything in sight. Later taters.

I'm giving this the old college try. I'm on day 2.