Thu. June 27

I feel like I should post a blog entry, but I sorta feel like I don't have much to say.

K, so, food consumption is still kinda meh, but I feel like I'm eating slightly better food. More fruits and whatnot. Exercise is alright too. I didn't go to the gym on Monday or Tuesday, but I went yesterday and tonight. And I went swimming yesterday too. Really gonna try to get a little more exercise after work tomorrow and on Saturday. And be active over the long weekend. Also gonna try to eat well over the weekend too, but we all know how my track record is with that. I swear I'll try though. lol

Apart from that, I feel like tonight's workout was good. Reeeeeeeally wanted to stop to walk during my 30 minute run, but I pushed through. I seemed to be more flexible than usual, I got my heart rate up to 176bpm (at one point) during my squats, and I had a little extra energy to get on the stair climber for 10 mins. All in all, burned 891 cals in 1h22m. More than I expected to.

Alrighty, I think that's all for now. TTFN.

PS - I went to see my doctor yesterday and she complimented me on my noticeable muscles. : )

Mmmmmmmmm...

 

Thu. June 20

I can't really say that I have good news to report, but I also don't have bad news. Just news.

Firstly, I've decided to see how long I can go for without chocolate. Like, anything that contains chocolate. I'm still on the fence as to whether I want this to include chocolate milk as well, but I don't drink a lot of chocolate milk as it is. Now, this isn't going to be like the pop thing where I (potentially) never touch the stuff again. Like I've said in the past, I'm a girl and that's just not going to happen. lol. But I'll give it the old college try and the last 24 hours have been successful so far.
Secondly, I ate fairly well today. Obviously, there's room for improvement, but I had a bunch of fruits and good stuff and really have no major issues with anything I ate. Now, if only everyday could be like this. lol

And lastly, I had 1000 cal burning work out last night, but I was pretty worn out tonight, so I just opted to do only one cardio session and then all my usual weight machines. I'll make a long story short and just say that the mind games I usually play with myself to distract me while on the treadmill didn't really work tonight and I didn't think I was going to be able to go any quicker than the 5.2mph that I started at. That also meant I wouldn't be running any further than last time. Buuuuut, somehow, I was able to just keep pushing through and slowly getting faster and I finished at 5.6mph and ended up running 2.65 miles in 30mins. Sweet. Now the only issue is having to eventually go further in the same amount of time. Blah. Well, gotta strive for something.

Well, the goal for this weekend is to actually eat well/properly for once, go swimming both days, and.... that's pretty much it. Wish me luck.  : )

Wed. June 19

Feeling really blah right now. Both physically and motivationally.

I hadn't weighed myself in a bit, but I figured I was probably doing alright. So, I weighed myself yesterday and NOPE. I've put on at least a few pounds. Now, maybe some of that was a little water weight or whatever, but that fact that I couldn't even maintain my weight for like a week is pretty shitty. On top of that, this morning for breakfast, I had ribs, rice with soya sauce, and a bunch of chocolate. : /

Why can't weight loss be 20% eating and 80% working out? I'd be in such good shape by now. I just... I can't even put it into words. I'm so pissed off at myself, at science, at facts, at my ability to lose weight cuz of my gender. Some days, I really wish I had the discipline to be anorexic or I wasn't so terrified of throwing up and then I could be bulimic. It's so much easier to recover from those than it is to lose weight when you're already fat.

*bangs head on wall*

Anyway, I've already gone swimming twice this week, so I've made decent use of my splash pass. I went to the gym on Monday (ran 2.61 miles in 30 mins) and skipped last night, but I'll be going tonight and tomorrow. Just gonna try to get back on track with my eating. I've been meaning to make a list of healthy, low-cal meals from me to choose from to make meal planning easier. Maybe I'll make that a priority on the weekend. So, ya. Gonna go get ready for work now.
 
Bye

Dare to dream.

Tue. June 11

So many things I wanted to say earlier and now I'm sort of drawing a blank.

Ok, I'll talk about my workout from yesterday, but keep it sorta brief. I was able to run at about the same speed and time and all that, but I think I got like 0.015 miles further than last time, so I guess that's something. lol. There was like 2 or 3 times that I sorta felt a little like throwing up. I know people say it's not such a big deal if you do, and whatever and I know I would've had time to get to a garbage bin and I wouldn't even be embarrassed, I just HATE the feeling of wanting to throw up and actually throwing up. I know no one likes it, but to me, it feels like a phobia. Also, the feeling of having no control and just heaving and not knowing when it'll stop and trying to catch my breath between heaves, it just sucks. But ya, I was able to keep my stomach under control, but I was mentally feeling kind of out of it. Like, I was doing stuff I wasn't used to and my sweat kept making my vision blurry for almost the whole work out. I still burned a shit ton of cals though, so I guess I can't complain.

Ok, so one thing I have been thinking about is maybe starting to buy my lunches at work again. I know it's better to bring healthy stuff instead of eating fast food, but sometimes the healthier stuff isn't that cheap. I did the math and I can get a 350 cal burger for $1.09 with my discount. I realize there's a bunch of pros and cons to this, but the value is fairly decent. Compare that to an entire container of yogurt (227cals) for $1.99 on sale (normally $2.97). I do realize that there is stuff I can buy and bring with me that is both cheap and healthy, but I might try this for a week see how it goes. On the other hand, since my restaurant has been open 24 hours for the past week or so, I haven't had any McD's at all since I can't take home the leftovers when we close. I'm not like "addicted" to the food, so this isn't a big deal. It's just another thing to be considered. lol

Anyway, just chilling out right now before I head to the gym in a bit. Tata

If this is real, it could be a game changer.

Sun. June 9

Another entry where I don't really know how to start it.

I guess I'll start with a Ke$ha report. I don't wanna complain cuz I do really like her, but the whole meet and greet was a bit of a let down. Without going into detail too much, there was something missing from the SWAG bag that we were promised would be delivered to everyone's houses (I'll give it a few days and then try to contact someone), the food at the party was lack luster (chips and condiments and mini pitas with shitty humus), I was probably got to meet her for like 30 seconds, tops and it was chilly as balls (but I guess that's not really anyone's fault). Oh, and she was the 2nd last performer; Pitbull was the first. So, on the plus side, that meant I could leave earlier. I didn't end up going to the gym that night. I was tired and cold and just spent my time cleaning my room and then went to bed.

I was able to run for 30 mins straight starting at 5mph and ending at 5.2. Can't complain about that, but my eating is still pretty bad. I have a lot of yogurt to get through before it goes bad next month, so maybe I'll do a yogurt day sometime next week.

Um... ya.. that's all I've got to say right now. The weight loss pressure is kind of off, but I'm still gonna try really hard to make it to the gym as much as possible next week. Perhaps I've started a habit?

Ke$ha and me : )

Sun. June 2

Probably should've updated days ago, but I'm lazy. Sue me. lol

Ok, so, my Wed and Thu night workouts were both over 1h45m long. I burned over 1000 cals both night as well. And did 30 mins of running and stairclimbing each both nights. Pretty proud of that. On top, I was able to push myself to do 30 mins of running before work on Friday. It was at a slightly slower pace, but still. Oh, and this happened too... (I'll just copy/paste what I wrote on FB as opposed to typing it out again, lol)

"So, me and a guy at the gym decide to share the bench pressing bench/equipment. He goes first. Puts two 25lb weights on 45lb barbell and does his set. He gets up and starts removing the 25's for me and I say "no, no, leave them" and then ADD another 25lb weight to EACH side. The look on his face. Ha!"

Anyway, like usual, I'm being pretty inactive this weekend. I picked up some apple sauce and cucumbers to add to my big collection of yogurt for meals and snacks next week. And I picked up my "splash pass" so I can go swimming a lot this summer. :)

So, the week at a glance will be interesting. Really gonna try to buckle down and get some good results. My work schedule looks like it'll allow for 4 days at the gym, but I can probably stretch those into 1.5 or 2 hour sessions (not including the walks there and back). And then Ke$ha is on Wednesday. At this point, my goal for that is to not look bloated and disgusting, but I think I can pull it off. lol. Honestly, the only thing that's really depressing me about her show is that she's only gonna be performing 12 songs. :/ Hopefully the next time she comes, she'll have time to do more. *mumbles*stupid Pitbull*mumble*

Alrighty, I'm gonna see if I can bring myself to make a decent meal plan for next week, so I'm not just eating whatever and can keep an eye on my calories. Laterz.

From the last 3 Halloweens. Hoping to be a lot smaller this year.