Wed. January 30 (pt 2)

Quick little post.

Had yogurt and fruits during both my breaks at work. And about half way through my shift, I got really bloated and uncomfortable and it friggen sucked. Best guess, I put too much Benefiber in yogurt. I've noticed in the past that too much has made me gassy. lol. I walked to the gym after work and was feeling sorta better. Got my work out done in a bit over 1h40m and had a very light snack when I got home.

So, I had my heart rate monitor on for most of the day and here's how my day went calorie-wise...

Walk to work - 149
Work - 1308
Walk to gym - 201
Work out - 1024

2682 calories that I know of. Awesome. Here's hoping I lose some of that little extra weight I put on. (Damn you, delicious pizza. lol)

Mother who got a tattoo of her baby's birthmark. So sweet.

Wed. January 30

Feeling blah right now.

I got down a few more pounds yesterday and was really happy about that, but I knew I'd have to be really careful with my eating. Isn't that one of the sucky things about weight loss? The more results you get the more careful you have to be? Anyway, breakfast and lunch were both fine and then I decided to hang with a friend after work to watch the hockey game, and then Snooki & JWOWW, and then head to the gym. That didn't really happen though. The game went a little long due to overtime and I figured we'd probably just pop over to the grocery store to grab something quick, at which point I would grab some fruit or whatever. But that didn't happen either. We ended up deciding on pizza from Dominos. We split some cheesy bread and had a medium pizza to ourselves. I went with a thin crust pizza with pep, bacon and beef. I was definitely full before I reached the half way point, but I didn't want to have to wrap it and risk it spoiling at the gym before I could refrigerate it at home. So, I just ate the whole thing. Anyway, it just kept getting later and later and the weather was pretty crappy and slippery and I was feeling really bloated and yucky from the pizza, so I ended up not going to the gym. :/

However, on the bright side, I was actually able to tell when my body was full, the pizza left me feeling like crap,  so I don't foresee myself eating that or overdoing it like that in a while, and apparently I was super tired and needed a rest day cuz I ended up passing out earlier than usual.
So, right now, I'm just chilling out before work after having my protein shake and toast with peanut butter for breakfast. Definitely gonna go to the gym tonight after work and cuz of the hours I'm working, I get to walk 20 mins to work and then 40 mins to the gym. So, that'll be some nice extra cardio. :)

In other good-ish news, when I put on my freshly laundered work pants yesterday, they weren't as tight and usual. And I currently have some chocolate and gummies calling my name in my room, but I'm telling them to F off til after Cuba. haha 

Me, last night. lol

Mon. January 28

Feelin' good right now.

I just got home from a late night work. I upped the weight on a few of the machines I use, including adding another 10lbs to my bench press, bringing my bench to 125lbs. I was able to do a few sets with a handful of reps. So, I think I'll make that my new normal and work on getting better at it. Anyway,  it took me just under 1h45m to get to 1000 cals, but I wasn't too bothered by that. At least I was able to get to 1000.

So, today was fairly alright food-wise. I had my protein shake in the morning, but I also had some Chinese leftovers that I guess my parents had had over the weekend. Lunch was good, dinner was decent, snacks were fine and after the gym, I just had a piece of toast with some peanut butter. I was about to say that (with the exception of right before dinner) I haven't felt all that hungry today, but my stomach just let out a loud growl. lol. Whatever, I'm in bed now and will probably fall asleep soon.

Hmm, I can't recall if there was anything else I wanted to say at the moment. Oh well, if I think of something, I'll add it later. Hoping for a pound or so of weight loss tomorrow (since I was up like 1.5-ish lbs after the weekend). Ok, sleepies. Bye.  

Sun. January 27

Random thoughts and various things to say and report. Ok, let's try to make this coherent.

Was down another .4lbs on Saturday morning, but this weekend has not been good food-wise. Especially Saturday. I went to a hockey game and I'd say almost everything I ate in the entire day more or less junk food. And my body was not happy. I was super bloated and felt yucky, so first thing tomorrow (Monday) back to protein shakes and yogurt and fruits.

I picked up some multi grain bread tonight that I went to try out this coming week. Also, tomorrow will be the last day of my water weight flush. I'm thinking I may give myself several days and do another one. And I'm giving myself til the end of the week to be down at least a couple more pounds. If not, I'm gonna take more... restrictive measures. Not gonna skip meals or anything, but really make sure that I'm only eating stuff that's really healthy.

On top of that, I was just reading some old entries from a different blog that I was writing like a year and a half ago, just to see if there was something I was doing or anything I said that will help me with my weight loss now. This blog was kept when I was losing weight the first time. In it, I apparently dropped like 5lbs from October 2-11. And I was basically the same weight on Oct 2 that I am now, but I didn't seem to say exactly what I did. Best I can figure, just a lot of clean eating an using my treadmill. Well, I can certainly do that and this may just be the motivation I need; proof that I can do it cuz I've done it before.

So, I think the plan for this week is just to try and do some basic meal planning so I know how many calories I'm taking in, gyming as much as I can (really hoping for another 4 visit week), using the treadmill when I've got the time and just not beating myself up too much about this whole process.

Gonna be honest, I am a little scared for my weigh in tomorrow morning, but it is what it is and I can only try to do better.

Love this hair. Can't wait til mine is naturally this long. It's never been.  : (

Fri. January 25

Thank God this week in finally over. Mainly for the work aspect, but I'm also just looking forward to having a proper weekend.

Anyway, I started the day by sleeping in a little, which is ok, but I was expecting to woken up some time around 8am due to the laxative pill I took at 8pm the previous night. Didn't happen and I saw next to no results for the pill. So, when I weighed myself this morning, I was up like .6lbs. Still in my new "weight bracket" though. I tried not to get to bummed out by the and just went about my day.

Had my protein shake and water weight flush drink, messed around on the computer a bit and was even able to make myself use my treadmill for 45 mins (at various speeds and inclines, burned 570 cals :]). I did have 345 cals worth of perogies today cuz I ran a little short of time before work and and didn't want to have too much fruit and yogurt today. It was a nice treat and I don't think really affected me that much.

Work was meh, as I figured it would be. Afterward, I raced home to get ready to hang out with a friend. For whatever reason, I was compelled to weigh myself, which I did and I apparently weigh the same thing I did this morning. Sweet. Anyway, got ready, texted my friend a couple times and didn't hear back. So, I'm assuming he fell asleep (I was ready at like 1:20am, so I can't complain, lol). So, I hung out with my dad and nephew a little and was sorta bad food-wise. I had like 6 or 7 tortilla chips and a hot dog (sans bun) with a little ketchup. I knew I was hungry not just bored, but I could do better than this. So, I poured myself a big glass of water and had three 5cal jello cups. After that and a good night's sleep, I'm hoping this'll put me back down where I was and maybe even a touch lower.

Ok, so here's hoping. Also, I'm going to a Toronto Marlies hockey game tomorrow. First 3000 fans get a free pair of pom poms. Holla! lol

Thu. January 24

FINALLY. Some progress.

So, yesterday, I was down close to 3lbs.  :) I've been putting in a good effort at the gym, doing that water weight flush, having protein shakes every morning. Again, my food hasn't been super perfect, but it's been really good. Haven't been dipping into goodies or over eating and the last couple nights, when I've come home from the gym hungry, I've just had some fruit and that's it. So, that's been that since up to yesterday.

Now, this morning, I got close to 8 hours of sleep, went to the bathroom as soon as I got up and prayed to the weight loss Gods for something. Even just .2lbs. Please not the same and definitely not an increase. So, I stepped on the scale, waited for the numbers to stop and.... Huzzah! .2lbs down. Not great, but I'll gladly take it. I really am gonna have to put my nose to the grindstone though. Gotta eat really well and healthfully and at proper times. And I'm gonna need to work smart at the gym. The only major issue I'm having I'm kinda sore and tired for all the working out I've been doing. Part of me knows I need to "rest" for my muscles to repair themselves, but the other part of me keeps thinking "burn calories, burn fat, push push push". So ya.

As I'm typing this, I just got a text (from work) saying they don't need me to come in til 6pm, as opposed to 4. I'm not looking at my treadmill wondering if I should do 20 or 30 mins on it just cuz I have the time. Hmmm. I guess I'll see how I feel. Either way, time for some lunch. Chicken and cheese, I think. Maybe one of my homemade peanut butter protein bars after. I'm starting to drool. Ok, bye. lol

This will be every day in Cuba. lol

Mon. January 21

Short post cuz I'm tired and my head hurts.

Went to WalMart after work and picked up more protein powder, green tea capsules, flaxseed oil, bananas and a large thing of peanut butter. They didn't have lemon juice, but apparently we had a bunch in the back of the fridge at home, so cool. Gym work out went well. Increased the weight on a couple of machines, burned more cals than I thought I would on the elliptical and dead lifted 88lbs. Yay!

When I got home, I made up the water weight flushing drink to start tomorrow. I had a little taste of it and it's not terrible, but it's still something I'm gonna have to force down. I just had a thought though, I wonder if I could add some Crystal Light to it. Hmmmm......

Ok, sleepy time cuz I have work at noon and blah.

Sun. January 20

Kinda a little excited right now.

So, I found the dandelion root tea and cranberry juice for that Jillian Michaels water weight flushing drink. Just gotta pick up some lemon juice tomorrow. Also, I've been looking into protein shake benefits and recipes and it's really making me wanna make some and I really think they'll help me with my weight loss. On top of that, I get to start using my treadmill again tomorrow. I'm also thinking I'll pick up some green tea capsules. I have a good feeling about all of this and can't wait to get this started so I can see some F***ing results. I swear this is getting embarrassing. 27 days til Cuba and it's like I've made next to no progress. Frig.

Anyway, this week is gonna suck work-wise. 36.5 hours and most of the shifts are for front counter, which I hate. Whatever. We don't have "smiles" listed on the menu anymore, so you can be sure hardly anyone will be getting them.

Ok, that's all for now. Praying for results soon. Laterz.

Me, quite a few years ago.
I know I don't look that thin, but the fact that I can do up that vest
shows just how much smaller I was back then.
What I'd give to be there again. :/

Fri. January 18

So tired, but I shall blog anyway.

Well, today may have been my best day so far. Not that it was perfect, but it was pretty good.
Last night, I hung out with a friend after work, but still found the determination to head home around 11pm, pack a bag and go to the gym. I burned my usual 1000 cals, but I was there with a friend and there were a couple times we talked a little more than working, so it took close to 2 hours to do.

Then today, I went to the gym in the afternoon. I dunno why, but I wasn't burning cals as quickly as I usually do. So, again it took close to 2 hours to burn 1000. I'm kinda thinking it may be cuz I didn't leave enough time to "recover" from my work out the previous night. Like, I went to the gym twice in a span of 16 hours, which is awesome, but probably not great for my muscles. Anyway, I also walked there and back (which was not the case last night) and I picked up some fruit and impact absorbing mats (for under my treadmill) from WalMart.

I don't think I mentioned that I moved my treadmill into my room a few days ago. It's currently facing a wall as opposed to my TV, but I may move some things around to make stuff work better. So, I put the mats under it and did a quick test at 4mph and they seem to work really well. This is also awesome cuz now I have really no excuse to not use it like everyday (that I'm home). I can literally get right out of bed, put on some sneakers and start running. I can even do it in just a bra and underwear... I probably won't though cuz then my thighs will rub together too much and that's not a good time. lol. But it leaves me hopeful for the next 4 weeks.

I also ate pretty well today. Gonna try to keep this weekend and then get to the gym as much as I can next week. Based on my schedule, I think I could do at least 3 or 4 days. Maaaaaaaybe 5 if I really push it. But I'll see.

Ok, bedtime. Gotta let my muscles heal and grow and help me burn off some fat. lol

I wanna try this, but I need to find out where to get the tea and cran juice.

Sun. January 13

I feel like I’m wavering a little bit.

I didn’t make great (food) decisions and really haven’t been making great ones today so far. I’m feeling kinda “why even bother?” right now. I know that it’ll be worth it in the end, I’m just feeling kinda blah right now.

Recently, I’ve been wondering if my birth control could be affecting my weight loss. Or lack thereof. I mean, it’s not like I’m only eating 1000 cals a day and busting my ass at the gym and seeing no results. You get back whatever you put into something, but I’m just curious. I’m gonna need to see my doctor soon for some vaccinations for Cuba, so maybe I’ll ask then.

Sometimes, it just feels like I wish I had more time to really dedicate to this. I know I just had 2 weeks off last month, but there’s always other stuff to contend with. There’s work, sleep, hanging out with friends and wanting to spend time with my nephew. I feel like the perfect scenario would be to have a fridge and cupboards of only healthy foods (no chips and chocolate and stuff to tempt me) and a full gym at my disposal, which I would probably use twice a day. But of course, that’s not an option and people who are busier and bigger than me find the time to make it happen. I just need to make this a priority and get it done. It’s just hard, but no one ever said it was gonna be easy.

Thu. January 10

Down like 2 lbs today. Woo!

And I was finally able to get to the gym. Both walks there and back burned a bit over 200 cals each and then I burned 1000 cals in a little under 1h30m again. I noticed that heart was kinda paining me a little when I was on the treadmill and stair climber though. Like, not heartache bad, but just kinda tight. Might have to keep an eye on it when I (most likely) go back tomorrow.

Otherwise, my eating was not perfect, but it was still fairly good. I stocked up on some low-cal jello and apples and WalMart is gonna have a bunch of healthy food on sale, so I probably gonna grab some celery and chicken and stuff.

That's about it. Gonna hope for another pound lost. Or even just a fraction of a pound. As long as I don't gain or plateau (for too long), I'm happy.

True lol

Wed. January 9

I think I did fairly well today.

The only "bad things" I had were just 2 chocolate covered Oreos (120 cals) and spinach dip with baked pita (approx. 460 cals total). Otherwise, all my foods were on the lower side calorie wise and I made sure there was at least 2.5 hours between meals. Didn't get to the gym like I figured, but that's ok. I puttered around my room, did some organizing, played with my nephew and did a couple loads of laundry. And I drank soooo much water today. I think I went to the bathroom like 7 times, no lie.

So, I'm just hoping for a good weigh in tomorrow cuz it's only 5 weeks until Cuba. Now, experts say you should only lose like 1-2lbs a week, but I'm gonna see if I can push it a little and do 3 a week. I'm currently trying to lose about 30lbs, but I'd be happy with just being down 15 when I go to Cuba. So, I'm gonna work the hell out of the gym tomorrow and just try to eat a little better. :)

I can only hope that this'll be me when it's my time.

Tue. January 8

Was having such a good day... until the end.

Food wise, that is. Breakfast was good, lunch was good, dinner was mainly good and then I had my usual 4th meal and was feeling kinda peck-ish. I wasn't sure what I wanted, but figured if I was gonna "over eat" a little, then it should be on good food. So, I finished up a little broccoli I had in the freezer, a whole carrot and an orange. Not bad, right? Then I had a handful of these little dollops of yogurt that I froze. That was fine too. But then, for whatever reason, my mom pulls out this bag of various bags of chips. I'd like to say I had just a few, but I didn't. I wouldn't say I had a lot, but it was definitely more than a little. I realize this was probably out of boredom and denying myself stuff like that for the last little bit. But ya, hopefully my calorie intake earlier in the day was on the lower side and this won't have a big impact. I also had a cleansing tea before I attacked the chips, so maybe that'll help too. And I would've totally hit up the gym tonight, but I was watching my nephew and I'll be watching him for most of tomorrow, so I may not get back there til Thursday. *le sigh*

Makes me laugh. lol

Mon. January 7

Had quite an interesting turn of events today... in a good way.

Thanks to a decent night's sleep and a gentle laxative, I re-lost those couple pounds and an additional one. After which, I had breakfast and started cleaning my room for a bit before having to head off to work. But I got a call (that I'd been semi expecting/hoping for) saying that my work was gonna be closed today and I could have the day off.

After dancing around my room, I quickly got my gym stuff together and headed off to the gym, hoping I could get in there before the after work rush. I wore my heart rate monitor on the walk there and it said I burned 216 cals in the 21 min walk. Part of me thought it was great cuz the number was so high, but I knew it was just cuz my heart hadn't had to deal with any strenuous activity in a while.
At the gym, I did my usual circuit and it only took me 1h23m to get to 1000 cals instead of the usual 1h30m+ (by the end, I'd burned 1036 in 1h27m). On the way home, I apparently burned another 209 too.

Once home, I showered, had a little snack (no binge-ing or cheating) and got back to cleaning my room. I got like 98% of everything picked up and put away and my room looks way better now. :) Afterward, I made a quick trip to WalMart then out to dinner with a friend. We went to Montana's and I was determined to have the pot roast soup cuz it's only 90 cals. However, they were out of it and the chicken soup (a good back up) looked questionable, so I just had a side caesar with chicken and a chicken quesadilla. Not entirely sure on the calorie content of those, but I could've done much worse.

Not entirely sure what I'm gonna do for meals tomorrow, but I have a lot of yogurt to get through, so maybe I'll have a couple tubs of that. lol

PS - I made peppermint tea today, but with cold water. It was ok-ish. I might try to do this every other day or so just to get used to it.


This is me as of this morning. Was trying on a bikini for Cuba, just to see how bad it would look. Next thing I know, I took these pix and decided to post them. After seeing the larger versions on my laptop, I was kinda re-thinking the whole thing, but then thought "whatever, fuck it, might as well be honest." 

Sun. January 6

I haven't been doing too bad, but I know I could be doing better.

So, nearly a week into 2013 and I haven't been to the gym yet. I have some decent time off this week, so I'll try to hit it up as much as I can. But anyway, I weighed myself the morning following my 4lb loss and was up 2, but I tried to reassure myself that it was just a temporary gain and it's only about the inches and blah blah blah. Fun fact: I call my scale the "Bad News Box". lol. Moving on...

Today, I was ready to be good. I had healthy snacks that I'd brought to my friend's place, I knew we'd be going to Boston Pizza for lunch (even though it would technically be my breakfast... at 1pm) and I'd do salad and then I'd have a low cal soup and some chicken at Kelsey's for dinner. Well, the snacks didn't get touched, but that's ok. I did have a salad at BP, but I went to Timmy's afterward and got a triple chocolate muffin, 2 chocolate chunk cookies and a yogurt. I waited for at least 2.5 hours after my first meal to have the yogurt muffin though. Then waited a few more hours and went to Kelsey's for dinner. I had the cream of broc soup (200 cals) and I was kinda considering also having their soup of the day (since there's 2 others I like that are 90 and 110 cals), but it was tomato bisque and I don't like that, so I just got chicken fingers... instead of the grilled chicken I should've gotten. *face palm* I didn't have a starter, but my friend and I did dessert. So, ya, I had the best intentions but it was not an ideal day. I can only strive to do better tomorrow and hope for a decent weigh in cuz time is now really of the essence...

It has basically been decided that some friends and I will be leaving for Cuba on either Feb 14 or 15. That was kind of the assumption I was harboring under, but to have an almost set in stone date is really gonna help. It's "go time" and this weight needs to get gone. lol. Gotta eat clean and consistently and really push it in the gym. I would use my treadmill at home, but there's so much junk and clutter piled around it, it's kinda ridiculous. There's been talk of moving it to my room, which would be nice, but I'm not sure how loud and shaky it would be for both the whole house and the neighbours.

So, ya, hopefully I'll have some decent progress to share in a couple days. I feel good about things this time 'round. :)

You go, girl. So inspirational.

Fri. January 4

So, this has been my year so far...

Jan 1
Was gonna be good and start fresh and all that good stuff, but do to "reasons", I ended up having only 2 meals and both of them were pizza.

Jan 2
Had oatmeal for breakfast and was gonna go to the gym, but then I got busy with my nephew and found out my dad had the day off. So, I was gonna ask him to help me run a couple errands, but we decided to go out to Mandarin for dinner "as a family" (minus my sister though). I coulda gone to the gym afterward, but I was pretty tired. So, I just popped in to WalMart to pick up some healthy food. I ended up leaving with a bunch of stuff, including an 8lb bag of oranges, some pork chops and eight 650mL tubs of yogurt. lol

Jan 3
Didn't make it to the gym again, but I ate good meals properly spaced apart throughout the day. I did kinda munch on some stuff I shouldn't have had after work, but I'm gonna work on this and just have fruit or low cal jello in the future.

That brings me to today and when I weighed myself this morning, I was down 4lbs. I had kinda figured I would maybe be down like a pound, but 4 is great. However, I can't get too happy about it since it's 4lbs I had gained back and had to re-lose. But at least it's a step in the right direction. Just gonna be good again today and hope for another couple pounds. Maybe I'll have an only yogurt day soon or something, just to shock the system a little (the yogurt I buy is only 227cals per tub).

Jennifer Lawrence (plz ignore her face, lol). I want a body like that.

Tue. January 1 - 2013 Goals/To Do List

1) Read 6 books
2) Lose 30lbs (from today)
3) Get a new job
4) Go to the gym at least twice a week
5) Get 4 new tattoos
6) Procrastinate less
7) Keep my room clean and organized
8) Bench press 150lbs (I can currently do 115)
9) Have $10,000 in my RSP by year end (currently over $6400)
10) Try to fall asleep and wake up at more reasonable times
11) Hang out with friends more
12) Shop (for clothing) less
13) Be able to do difficult-ish yoga poses and/or the splits.

Was trying to think of more, but this is probably gonna keep me busy enough. And 13 goals in 2013 sounds ok. :)

Sorry, sorry, thought of a few more. lol
14) Run at least two 5Ks
15) Do the stair climb at the CN Tower in April
16) Drink about 2L of water a day

I love you, JK Rowling. lol