Sun. December 30

As fascinating/interesting as "before and after" weight loss pix are to me, I know that that could never be me. At least, to the extent that most of the pix are.

I have no idea how girls can go from like 275lbs to like 120. I mean, it's not like I actually don't understand, I just can't wrap my mind around it cuz there's no way in hell I could get down to that weight. Honestly, my goal weight would be in the 150's (and I feel like that number isn't giving too much away in regards to my actual weight right now). But short of cancer, anorexia or surgery, I could NEVER get down that low. And I accept that, I'm not bitching here or anything. I just know my limitations. I also know that I'm stronger than I look, so I'm sure a fair percentage of my weight is muscle. I also suspect that I am legit big boned. And that's not an excuse. It just seems that based on the width of my wrist bone(s) and ribcage, I may have a larger skeletal structure than most women. I dunno. I might bring this up with my doctor next time I see her.
 
Anyway, on to other things. I bought (another) 4 half price chocolate oranges and a 400g chocolate almond bar. However, I have not touched them. A friend shared a little of his chocolate with me this weekend and there have been a couple trips to Tim Horton's for cookies, but I didn't have any of the other stuff even though I wanted it. Baby steps, I guess. I'm just gonna add them to my goodie hoard and try to forget about it til after Cuba.

Also, as much as I don't like to "follow the crowd", I'm definitely gonna need to get it together after New Years. Gotta schedule in a good amount of work outs, eat more fruits and veggies and try to "cheat" less. I've been trying to make small improvements this weekend, but come Tuesday morning, I gotta go all or nothing. Maybe I'll even take a "before" pic in a bikini... even though I'll never share it with anyone. haha

Ok, that's all. Maybe I'll go compile a 2013 Goal/To Do list and post it later. Later peoples. : )

I could totally live with this.

Wed. December 26

Gonna keep this short, cuz I'm kinda tired but I just wanted to check in.

So, I'm not gonna try to name off every last thing that I ate, but wasn't good. Went to Mandarin on Monday, but didn't get as full as I usually do. I didn't eat any less than I usually do though. Had some sweets at my Oma's afterwards. Snacked on cookies, chocolate, chocolate covered caramel corn and whatnot on XMas day before the actual dinner (where I only had one plate of turkey, potatoes, peas and gravy) followed by cake and more goodies. And then I started today with cookies and chocolate, had all you can eat ribs (which was my only proper "meal" of the day) and had a little more cookies and chocolate.

I haven't weighed myself in a few days and I'm a little scared to. May just bite the bullet and do it tomorrow, but I may also wait til January. lol

Honestly, right now I could totally go for a big glass of water and some hearty chicken soup or something like that. I can't wait to get back to eating "normally". I haven't been feeling like crap, per se, but I know I'm not up to par. On top of which Cuba is the next big "event" coming up and I swear to God I am not walking around in a bikini like the fat piece of shit I am right now.

Anyway, bed time now. Still trying to catch up for the sleep I've missed out on for the last couple nights.

Sat. December 15

I don't want to use the word depressed cuz I feel that's a kind of severe word for the situation, but that's sorta how I feel.

A friend is having a small BDay party in Barrie and I'm not there. It's not that I'm busy or whatever, it's just all the way in Barrie. Now, if I could drive myself, I'd totally make the trip, but I can't and I feel really guilty asking my dad to take basically 4 hours out of his time when he's already got enough on his plate with XMas and whatnot. I also have another friend whom I kinda have plans with and whom I'd like to think would miss me if we weren't hanging out for the rest of the night but, honestly, he probably couldn't care less. I really wanted to go though and I'm bordering on tears, but this is the decision I've made and I'm gonna have to live with it.

On the food forefront, I'm not particularly hungry, but I dunno if this emotion is going to make me want to eat to feel better or if I'm gonna lose my appetite for the rest of the evening. I kinda feel like I won't eat much else tonight, which is probably for best cuz all I've had to eat is crap. On top of which, I hardly went to the gym this past week and with about 60 days til Cuba, I've actually put weight on.

I know that this is just a small portion of today and I'll get over this feeling, but it's tiny moments like these where I feel it's good that I have family whom I know would miss me and that I can't wait to eventually become a mom. Otherwise, I see little to no point of me actually being "here". No reason to get worried or anything though. Like I said, this is all temporary. Just little things I think about.

Tue. December 11

Gah, FML!

So, of the 5 weekdays I had off last week, I went to the gym 4 times. According to my heart rate monitor, I burned 1000 cals in about an hour and a half each time. However, my weight didn't really go down that much. I think I may have even put a little bit on. Can't remember for sure; I think my mind is trying to forget it out of shame and frustration.

There was a little turn of events with the reno at my work, so I ended up with this full week off too. And today is the 2nd weekday and I have not been to the gym once. I had a tattoo appointment during the early afternoon (will post pix later) and then ended up having dinner with a friend instead of gyming in the evening yesterday. And today, I was babysitting and then gave blood in the evening, so that kinda ruled out today. I think I'll be able to make it for the next 3 days though. At least I'll try. I'm going dancing with a friend tomorrow night, so that should burn some cals either way.

There's a tanning place right beside the blood clinic in the mall and they had a sign out about some aloe vera wrap treatment that claims it can help you shrink between 6 and 20 inches in a single wrap. I got a pamphlet on it and read it and it seems interesting. I didn't found out how much it costs, but if it's a decent price, I'll try anything once. They offer free consultations, so maybe I'll get one and take it from there. Maybe losing several inches will be a good kick in the pants.

I'm also thinking I should really have an only fruit and veggies day soon, just to cleanse myself a little. And I need to get back into drinking Crystal Light. I haven't had it in a while.
So, ya, that's all for now.

Sun. December 2

(Blogging 2 days in a row? Oh em gee! lol)

K, so, I don’t want to use the word epiphany cuz that’s not right, but I had a… thought.

I was at a grocery store last night with a friend and we happened to walk down the pop aisle and it was pretty picked over cuz there was a sale on (2L bottles). There were several bottles of Fresca left and, I have no idea why, I was compelled to look at the nutritional value. And it claimed to have 0 cals per serving. I coulda sworn it would’ve had about the same cals as a Coke or Sprite (maybe less), but I had no idea it was 0 cal. It made me want to buy it and my friend said “go for it”, but I countered with “noooo, but it’s pop”. It even said on the label “zero-calorie soda”.

Now, I haven’t had pop since February ‘11; partly cuz it’s a healthy decision and partly cuz it’s fun to tell people “I don’t drink pop” and have them look at you like you’re crazy. lol. Buuuuut the thought has crossed my mind to drink diet pops again cuz I’ve heard people say you shouldn’t “drink your calories”, but these drinks have next to no cals. So, here are all the points to consider…

- Diet pops have no calories, but is it really worth it if they taste crappy and watered down? I’d almost rather have a Coke with all the flavour and cals than some blah Diet Coke

-In my mind, I consider Fruitopia and Iced Tea pop. I don’t consider Gatorade or juices pop though, even though they have similar cals and sugar levels and I would still drink those beverages (not so much the Gatorade though).

- I’m not really concerned with aspartame or low cal fake sugars cuz I drink Crystal Light (which obviously contains that) and I consider that ok.

So, ya, bit of a personal dilemma. Gonna have to think it over and maybe make Fresca a once in a while thing. I’ll see. 

Sat. December 1

I dunno why I always leave posting updates til it's pretty late and I'm really tired. Oh well.

So, today was the first of 12 days off from work. All I did today was get snakebite piercings and then go to a Toronto Marlies hockey game right after. Didn't really make great food choices or get that much physical activity (if you don't count yelling and getting antsy at the hockey players, lol). Tomorrow probably won't be a good day either, but come Monday, I really want to be hitting up the gym every (week)day. Maybe twice on some days, if a friend decides to go later in the evening. I picked up some more yogurt and fruit, so I should be ok on the food front. I just need to make sure I can kick and re-motivate my ass everyday. Cuba is less than 80 days from now.

Here's a pic of my snakebites.

Fri. November 23

I think I might need to make eating salads a restaurant only thing from now on.

I bought some romaine lettuce a couple days ago, so I decided to have a salad for dinner tonight. I added a little cheese, threw a couple pieces of bacon in the microwave (for crumbling) and had the dressing on the side for dipping. Everything about it was fine, except the dressing. It hadn't gone bad, it just didn't taste good. And this is not the first time this has happened.

Whenever I would have salad at home in the past, the only dressing brand we had was Kraft. It was alright-ish, but then tried the Renee's brand and liked that much better. But, in the last little while, I've started to dislike that brand too. I've probably mentioned this before, but the only salad I will eat is caesar. Ranch would probably be an extreeeeeemly far 2nd choice. But there are some restaurants who have caesars I really like; Wacky Wings, Jack Astor's, Kelsey's. I went to Applebee's last night and got the salad and the dressing really left something to be desired. I should ask these restaurants what brands they use and see if sell them in stores. Or maybe see what other brands are out there and if I can find one for home use that I find palatable. We'll see.

On a side note, my friggen wrist is hurting again today. Balls!

Pretty much. lol

Thu. November 22

Sometimes, I really dunno how to start these things.

So, since figuring out approximately how many days til Cuba, I had actually put on a few lbs. I'm not gonna act like I dunno where I those lbs came from. I know me and my eating are extremely far from perfect. But I was able to lose those few lbs and I was decent-ish tonight, so I'm hoping for a little more of a loss tomorrow. A problem I've had for the last couple weeks is not really having any "good" food in the house to choose from. However, I went to the grocery store yesterday during my break and picked up some yogurt, apples, oranges, lettuce, celery, roast beef and bananas. So, that should help with my food options. I haven't been too consistent with the gym either. Between painful feet, hanging with friends and baby stuff, it just hasn't been easy. I honestly don't see next week being any easier too. That being said, It looks like I'll be "on vacation" from Dec 3-12. I'm really gonna do my best to kill it at the gym and get my shit in that time. Maybe I'll make it a week and a half to just bit the bullet and drop several lbs.

Anyway, that's all for now. I'm kinda tired and hungry and a little bitchy, so I should go. lol

Laterz

Tue. November 13

So, at this point there's about 93 days til I would leave for Cuba.

Based on my weight this morning, that means I have 93 days to drop 16-26lbs. This may not seem like a lofty goal, but when you have poor self discipline like me, it's not gonna be so easy. 26 divided by 93 comes out to about .2lbs a day. Easier said than done when you consider you either need to cut calories and abstain from junk food and make sure that you work out enough for that whole period of time OR really cut the cals and step it up at the gym right away and have to maintain the weight loss OR really cut the cals and step it up at the gym just before I leave. I haven't decided which plan of attack I'll take.

And I've been meaning to do better every day. Like, today, I had a no carb breakfast.. then a few small pieces of chocolate (no biggie).. then had a hot dog..  then had a chimichanga and rice followed by 2 cherry cheese danishes. So ya, that's a fair representation of almost every day. :/
I think I could really benefit from some meal planning. Gonna have to spend the next couple days figuring this out and hoping I can stick to it.

Also, between my feet tattoos and babysitting, I didn't get to the gym today. Trying not too beat myself up about that though.

My new tats from an MSI song. Hoping to add shading and filigree soon.

Wed. November 7

Feeling really tired and pretty crappy right now.

I had a bit of chocolate and candy and chips before dinner. Everyone was free in the evening, so we all went to Lone Star. I didn't really eat more than I usually would, but all the crap I ate beforehand certainly didn't help.

Right after, I had my dad drop me off at the gym and I figured I wouldn't be all that productive cuz of how I was feeling, but I did alright. On Monday night, I had another (unintentional) "crappy food" night; I got home from work at 7, intending to go to the gym later that night and for about a good hour I kinda pigged out on chips and garlic bread and noodles. I still went to the gym and decided to make it a 1000 calorie night. Basically, I didn't care how long it took, I wasn't gonna call it a night til my heart rate monitor told me I'd burned 1000 calories. And I did that in just under on hour and a half. So, I tried to make that my goal tonight. I spent my time fighting stitches in my side and trying to keep my dinner down, but I was able to burn about 935 in almost the same amount of time. Note to self: Never work out on a full stomach like that again! I'm still dealing with my stomach even as I'm lying in bed. Just taking small sips of water and trying to breathe calmly.

So, anyway, I have not been doing well at all. I've put on several-ish pounds in the last little bit. On top of that, I was basically the same weight this year for Halloween as I was last year. Fitness-wise, that's a whole fucking year down the toilet. I can't even say like I lost 20lbs and gained it back or whatever. No, I've made like no progress and I'm very disappointed in myself. That being said, I know I'm stronger physically and pretty have better lung capacity and cardio stamina, but I have no idea about body fat percentage or anything like that. As far as I can tell, I don't see any inches lost anywhere, but I dunno.

I'm gonna need to grab a calendar and figure how many days and weeks til Cuba (in mid Feb) and make a plan. At this point, I'd just like to be down 10lbs, but I'm sure if I just grit my teeth and get it done, I could be down like 20 and I would love nothing more to just strut around the resort and pool beach area in a bikini with total confidence and without a care in the world. Help me, Je-bus. lol

Ok, bedtime. Gonna try to make it to the gym before I see SUM41 downtown tomorrow night, but my main priority is to get to the bank and set up a better retirement plan that'll see me with over $1M when I retire. Good times. lol

My costume this year.

Sun. October 28

I'm pretty tired right now but I realize it's been close to a week again since my last post, so I better write something. Just gonna keep it short and sweet and to the facts.

- I'm in Massachusetts right now. We left on Saturday (technically) at 4am, drove down and we're heading home tomorrow in the morning.

- I haven't been eating REALLY bad, but not all that good either. I'm scared to step on the scale when I get home.

- Assuming I don't lose any additional weight between now and Halloween, I'll pretty much be the same weight I was last year. What a waste of a year. :(

- If I'd really been determined, I could've used the gym at the hotel at least 3 times during our stay, but as it stands, I have not (and probably will not) go once.

- I still have a bunch of pumpkin stuff and prepping to do before Halloween. Not sure how much time I'll be able to get at the gym between now and then, but here's hoping.

- I'll still be dressing as a bunny regardless. And as much as I worry I'm gonna look like "the fat girl trying to be hot", I really am more concerned about how shitty the weather is probably gonna be. :/

- I had actually been really good for the days leading up to MA with my eating and gyming, but like I said, I'm sure that's all down the drain. Maybe I'll stick to just salad and cereal when I get home. lol

I think that's all for now. Wish me luck when I get home.

Vampire test. Looks like I passed. lol

Mon. October 22

Well, I had quite the weekend.

On Friday morning, I was down that 0.4lbs I wanted, which was awesome. Tried to be good during the day and then after work, I went out for a friends BDay. I just had one drink and then went to Wendy's afterward. Apparently, the burger I ordered was like 800 cals and I got fries with it. *face palm* So, I figured I'd be up quite a bit by Saturday morning.

I'll try to give you just the facts in regards to Saturday. I woke up at about 1pm, kinda hung around til a bit after 4 and then headed home to get ready for the Marlies hockey game I was going to at 7. I weighed myself since I hadn't had anything to eat yet and I was exactly the same as Friday morning. I knew it wouldn't last, but I figured I'd enjoy it while I could. From there, this is what my food day looked like...

5:30pm - breakfast - 2 oatmeal raisin cookies and chocolate milk
8-ish - lunch - poutine w/pulled pork on it
11:30 - dinner - pot roast soup followed by deep fried cheesecake.

Ya, no wonder I felt bloated for most of Sunday. We went to Wonderland that day and at least I spent a decent portion of the day walking or standing on my feet, but that was all probably totally ruined by the fact my dad wanted to eat at the buffet they offered. It was $20 ($16 for seniors) and they wasn't too many options, but I tried to do my best to get our money's worth (read: lots of pizza and dessert). My next meal wasn't any better; I had 2 cherry cheese danishes from Tim Horton's. So... ya...

Today was better, kinda. Cheerios for breakfast, steak for lunch, orange and granola bar for snacks and a triple cheeseburger (lots of lettuce, one slice of cheese) before I hit the gym. I was able to go a full 30 mins at 5mph and talked to a friend almost the whole time. It really helped distract me so the time just kinda flew by. So, we'll have to see if I've redeemed myself in the morning after a good sleep.

Anyway, I think this is gonna be the game plan from here on out: minimal carbs and try to only have them earlier in the day, gym whenever I can, lots of water and next to no sweets. At this point, I know I'm not gonna drop like 10lbs by Halloween, but at least I'll have put in the effort and will hopefully see results.

Fat and muscle. Same weight, but clearly different sizes.

Thu. October 18

Whoa. Did not realize it had been a week since my last post. Sorry.

Anyway, good-ish news to report. I really tried to watch what I ate on Tuesday and had a pretty good work out after work and on Wednesday morning, I was down like 3lbs, which put me at the lowest I've been in a while. So, I decided to again be careful to eat only good things and went to the gym for an hour after work yesterday. I weighed myself this morning and there had been no change. I guess I should be happy I didn't gain, but even a minimal weight loss would've been nice. I've been pretty exhausted the last couple nights I've gone to the gym, so I'm kinda considering not going tonight, but I probably should. If I could just drop like 0.4lbs today, I'd be satisfied. I'll see how me and my feet feel though.

The next couple fitness challenges that I know of (and want to participate in) are the CN Tower climb in April and the Mississauga Marathon in May. Now, I'm no where near being ready to do a marathon, but I am thinking about doing the 10K option. I have like half a year to prepare for those, so I think it's doable. I've discovered the "speed interval" setting on the treadmills at the gym and have used it the last few times I've gone. Just for those that don't know, you pick 2 different speeds to walk/jog/run at and then push a button to switch between the 2 for bursts of speed; both for working on endurance, speed and increasing your heart rate for better calorie burning. I've also started using the stair master. The first time I used it (this week) I had just given blood and could only do about 4 mins before I got the "something doesn't feel right" feeling and had to stop. The next time I did it, I got the same feeling at the 4 minute mark, but just pushed through it and finished my 10 mins. Last night, I did another 10 and was able to do like 39 floors. The CN Tower has 114 (1776 steps), so still got a ways to go, but I'll get there.

Um, I think that's all to report right now. I'm going to a Marlies game on Saturday, which I'm excited for and then Wonderland on Sunday and then next weekend, we're off to Boston and Salem for a couple days. Fun fun. :)

I am the master of balance. lol

Thu. October 11

It's another chilly night in my room, but that really has nothing to do with anything.

So, I was thinking today about ways to try and motivate myself to be good for the rest of the month. Ya know, cuz apparently Halloween and not being an unhealthy fat ass are not reason enough. I know I've mentioned that I don't drink pop any more. And even though I know it's been long enough that I don't need to worry about having a glass and opening the floodgates, I still choose not to drink it cuz I know water is much better and I have Crystal Light to give it flavour if I need to. Also, I like to be able to tell people I haven't had pop in XX months and be honest about, not having to say "except for those few times". It feels like an accomplishment. So, why can't I use that same logic and stop eating other things?

I know I could NOT go the rest of my life without eating things like chocolate or pizza or chicken wings. Buuuuuut I think I could really put forth a decent effort to really keep those kinds of foods to a minimum for a while and see how many days I can go without said items. After thinking about that statement for a minute, I remembered that this Saturday, there's some big poutine event on Saturday that I'm probably going to, so there goes that day out the window. lol. I really will try though. :)

Anyway, gonna get all snuggly and watch the Jersey Shore 1am repeat and hopefully get up in time to go donate blood and pick up some stuff from WalMart (strawberries are on sale ^_^) before work.

Handy info

Wed. October 10

Score one point for self control.

When I came home from work tonight, I was looking for something meaty and full of protein, but there seemed to be nothing in the fridge matching that description. So, I had a McD's apple pie, small piece of pumpkin pie and a bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch. I still wanted something hearty and warm and substantial though. So, I've been laying in bed for the last little bit, contemplating digging into what's left of my chocolate stash. Finally, I decide to just have a few pieces for the flavour, but when I go to sit up, I get real sleepy all of a sudden. So, I took it as a sign to just go to bed as opposed to eating out of boredom and tiredness. Go me.

So, that's all from me tonight. :)

Push ups: 70
Crunches: 220
Plank: 1:03:79

Tue. October 9

Having a cleansing tea at like 4:30 and then deciding to go to WalMart and then the gym like 6 or 7 hours later was not a good idea. lol

I was able to do my bench presses and about 24 mins (out of 30) on the treadmill before I decided it was time to call it a night. On the bright side, I wasn't too uncomfortable for the time that I was on the treadmill, so next time I think I'll step it up a bit. Also, I'm thinking of looking into what I need to do to register for the walking up the CN Tower thing. But first, I should find out when that usually is. lol

Anyway, I'm tired and my legs hurt, so bed time pour moi. :)

Circular scarf thingy I just finished crocheting tonight.

:)

Sun. October 7

I feel like about 50% of the "quick tips" you hear about to lose weight don't really apply to me.

One of the ones I hear a lot is to cut back on pop (even if it's diet). I haven't had pop since Feb of '11. Now, when I gave it up, I'd definitely say it helped drop some pounds; not sure exactly how many, but I know it did. Another one I hear is to try to cut back on alcoholic drinks. I rarely go out drinking. Like it's usually just a handful of friend's BDays every year (mine included), not clubbing once or twice a week, every week. So, the best I could do there is just try to cut back or make all my drinks doubles to cut down on sugary mixers. And the last big one I hear is to cut back on caffeine. I don't drink pop, I don't drink coffee, I don't drink tea. So, again, not an option. Now, I'm not complaining that I already don't do all these things so how come I'm not thin? I know that some of the food I eat is still pretty crappy, I just wish there was a list of tips for us... less normal consumers? (For lack of a better description)

A couple other tips I could probably touch on are being told to get more sleep (which I already do) and trying to walk more. I already walk most places. Unless I'm going downtown or something, I don't really take the bus. I walk to work, to the mall and spend about 8 hours a day on my feet at work. Again not complaining, just stating how some of these tips aren't helpful as they don't apply to some of us.

Now, having said all that, I've been thinking of slowly cutting back on some food as the month progresses and seeing if I notice any differences in any aspects. Like, maybe from here on out, no fried anything? Then a week later, cut back the carbs and then after that, strictly chicken caesars when I dine out? This is all obviously simple shit to figure out, but it's also easier said than done. Just gotta bite the bullet and get it done.

Push ups:60
Crunches: 200
Plank: 1:01:75

The dessert options we had for Thanksgiving dinner. I had a little of each. :/

Thu. October 4

Whoa. 5 page views for Monday's post and 4 for yesterdays. It's nice to know I'm not just typing this for no good reason ,but it's also a little scary to be putting myself out there to have friends and family know about my struggles. I guess if the outcome is good though, it's worth a little embarassment and shame. lol

So, today was good. I was supposed to watch Jack for the afternoon, but not long before that was gonna happen, my sister informed me that my services would no longer be required. At that point, I rushed to get ready and headed over to the gym. Started with some benching, ran for 30 mins (5.1/mph, 1.0 incline), a few leg machines and some hand weights and called it a day. I'm thinking that as well as increasing my running speed gradually, it would probably benefit me to increse the incline as well (for ma butt, lol).

Afterward, I went home, cleaned up and got some Chinese food with a friend... sorta. We went to a place with mainly Chinese food, but they have a few Indian options as well, so I got butter chicken and sweet garlic beef. The beef was alright, didn't eat most of it though. I'll probably add a ton of broccoli to it and take it to work for lunches for the next couple days. The butter chicken was really good though. A little overly oily, but it had good flavour without too much spice. It would've been a touch better with some naan bread, but I survived without it and probably saved myself some calories in the process.

When I was done eating, I set an alarm on my phone for 2h30m to make sure I gave myself enough time before I had food again. I had brought some chocolate with me to my friends place, but just in case I really wanted something sweet. Jeez, that such a girl thing to do; bring "emergency chocolate" with you. lol. After almost 2 hours, I decided to have some gum to see if that would help with my cravings and it kinda did. The flavour of my gum generally lasts about an hour so I don't like to spit it out anytime before then cuz it feels like a waste. When I did spit it out though, I felt fine and thought I could go the rest of the night without anything. However, my boredom/want got the best of me and I checked the nutritional info and decided I'd only have 100 calories worth of chocolate; just enough to taste, but not ruin the day. I guess I'll see if my plan works the next time I weigh myself.

Push ups - 40
Sit ups - 110
Plank - 48.88 secs

Skinny pants I bought a several weeks ago. C'mon autumn weather. :)

Wed. October 3

So, I was good-ish food-wise yesterday, except for the night time when I brought home some stuff from work that I shouldn't have. And had a little chocolate after that. Oh well. :/

Today was better. I had a pretty good work out at the gym. I'm benching 105lbs these days; I tried 115 once a few weeks ago, but it's not something I can maintain right now. I also wanted to make sure I could still jog/run cuz I hadn't gotten any physical activity since the 5K (3 days ago). So, I just gave myself 30 mins and only went at 5mph. There were a couple times I was feeling good and thought I could up it by a couple points, but I kept reminding myself I was doing this to make sure I can still go at that pace for that length of time. And I did. So, the next time I run, I'll either go 5mph again or just up it by .1 .

I went out with a friend for dinner and had half a spinach dip app, full chicken caesar (dressing on the side) and a bowl of broccoli soup. I was really hungry at the time, but I figured I'd only get half way through the salad and just take the rest home. That didn't happen though. I ate all of it and almost 2 full large glasses of water. I was definitely full, but not really uncomfortable. Not sure if I should proud or disgusted that I was able to put all that away. lol

I had a granola bar a while later and figured that'd be it for the night and was congratulating myself on a pretty good day when my friend brought up going for ice cream. I kept trying to tell myself I'd just regret it, I'd get over wanting it and it'll always be there so there's no need for me to have it now. But I did reeeeally want it. Anyway, long story short, the DQ was closed so we went to a McD's (where there no longer have Smarties as a flurry topping, bullshit) and I ended up with a strawberry sundae. I probably shouldn't have had it, but I'm sure it was less cals than the blizzard I would have gotten. Baby steps. Guess I'll just have to drink lots of water for the rest of the night and see what I weigh tomorrow.

Also, I'm trying to do push ups, sit ups and a plank everyday as both a little extra physical activity and to see how much better I get every day. Today:

Push ups: 27
Sit ups: 75
Plank: 42.37 secs

Hopefully tomorrow will be better. :)

Not yet, but maybe one day.

Mon. October 1

Ok, time to get get back on track.

So, I did my 5K yesterday and did pretty well. I was on roads as opposed to a treadmill, so there were more inclines than I was used to. After the first few minutes, I was already asking what I'd gotten myself into, but there was no way I was gonna stop, so I just pushed through. 2Ks down: just gotta keep going.. just gotta keep going.. almost to the half way point. 3Ks down: Oh God.. over half way done.. just gotta get to 4Ks.. Oh God.. Oh God. 4Ks: so friggen close.. just gotta push.. gotta push. At this point, there was one last steep-ish incline and I had been jogging/running consistently, but I just had to power walk it. Once I was on level group again, I started running again and things started looking familiar, so I knew I was close. I've heard of people really pushing themselves for the last minute or so and "finishing hard", but that was not an option for me; I kept running, but finishing hard was not an option for me. I was friggen done. However, my time was 31:30 which I was a little surprised by and proud of, but then I started thinking if I had running a little faster during the downhill portions and not slowed down to power walk, I might have actually been under 30 mins. Oh well, guess it gives me something to strive for next time. The only other 5K/8K run I know of left this year is being put on by GoodLife on October 27th, but that's my dad's BDay and I'll probably be on my way to Massachusetts that day. Guess I'll just have to keep an eye out for local ones next year.

Anyway, now that the run is over, my next "thing" to be fit for is Halloween. So, I'm really gonna try to be good this month; more salads, little to no fried foods, more consistent work outs. Here's hoping I can be down maybe a dress size by the end of the month. We'll see.

Also, I just switched cell providers and I now have unlimited data on my phone, I'm hoping this'll make it easier to make random and more consistent posts, but I tried logging into blogspot and tumblr and was having some difficulty, so I'll need to try and figure this all out.

So, that's it for me for now. Gonna try to get a bit of sleep before Jack wakes up (I'm on baby duty tonight, lol). :)

Me, before the 5K, showing off my shirt.

Mon. August 20

So, obviously, I've been gone for a while. I didn't plan this little break, but it was for a very good reason.

My sister had her baby on August 7; a little boy named Jack. He's adorable and I love him. He obviously takes up a lot of time though, on top of work, sleep and social life.

So, that's kind of all I have to say right now. I'll probably be getting back into the swing of things here soon, but I'm just gonna take my time enjoying the baby. Can't get these times back.

Jack <3

Fri. August 3

- Egg, sunny side up w/lots of extra whites
- Oatmeal w/raisins
- A few handfuls of baby carrots
- Several cucumber slices
- Peach
- 2 Crystal Light servings in water
- Small homemade smoothie (strawberries, bananas)
- 2 square pepperoni pizza slices (Pizza Pizza)
- 5 chicken bites w/BBQ sauce (Pizza Pizza)

So, I bought a scale today (among a few other things). It's digital, can hold up to 400lbs, can switch between kgs and lbs and can differentiate by .2lbs, which is really great. And, like when comparing between 2 different scales, I "put on" like 3lbs in the 30 seconds it took to weigh myself on the household scale and my new one. lol. But that's ok, it just means I'll know what I am more accurately.

Those bastards.

Thu. August 2

- Bagel w/peanut butter and strawberry jam
- Strawberry cheesecake Jello cup (130 cals)
- Orange Jello cup (80 cals) 
- A couple handfuls of baby carrots
- A dozen or so cucumber slices
- Orange
- 2 servings of Crystal Light in water
- Granola bar (110 cals)
- 2 Jello cups (160 cals)
- Half a spinach cheese dip app (Kelsey's)
- Bowl of broccoli cheddar soup (Kelsey's)
- Peppercorn cheeseburger w/ketchup, lettuce and 3 onion rings and a side of fries (Kelsey's)
- Medium strawberry cheesequake blizzard (DQ)

I had trouble eating breakfast again today. I had the bagel and it wasn't sitting as nicely as I'd like in my stomach, but I was in a rush this morning, so I wanted/needed something else (that I found appetizing) to help fill me up a bit more and hold me til lunch. I was feeling better shortly after though, so I guess that's good.

Also, I ate my feelings today. I fully admit and understand that. I won't go into the whole story, but basically I was looking forward to going swimming after work and due to a scheduling miss-communication, I didn't get to. Add to that they fact that I was only running on less than 4 hours of sleep (when I'm used to 8+), I just needed food and I was gonna have whatever I wanted. I was actually extremely close to getting fish and chips, but I opted for the burger and had the soup as well (which was a mistake) and then got a medium instead of a small ice cream cuz F the world in that moment. I'll probably pay for this tomorrow, but oh well. Story of my life. Anyway, time for sleep. There are some deals at Walmart tomorrow that are calling my name. lol

lol!

Wed. August 1

- About 1.5 cups strawberry yogurt
- Bowl of Corn Flakes in milk w/3 Splenda packets
- A few handfuls of baby carrots
- Several cucumber slices
- Orange
- 2 servings of Crystal Light in water
- Quarter Pounder, only ketchup, crispy onions, lettuce and cheese (McD's)
- 2 strawberry pies (McD's)

I was debating going for a run before work today, but I finally decided to go for it. I ran around my complex like 5 times, took 18 mins, burned 260 cals, so I can't complain. I know that any physical activity, no mater how short, is good. So, I really gotta remind myself of that and squeeze in little exercises when I can.

Do want!

Tue. July 31

- About 500mL chocolate milk
- Half a spinach cheese dip app (Kelsey's)
- Bowl of cream of broccoli soup (Kelsey's)
- Side caesar salad w/grilled chicken (Kelsey's)
- Strawberry cheesecake jello cup (130 cals)
- Medium sized steak
- Strawberry dried fruit bar (50 cals)
- Granola bar

Pretty much everyday, without fail, I have breakfast. I don't understand people that say they can't eat breakfast or that just don't (for whatever reason). However, today I tried to finish of some leftover spaghetti and it just wasn't happening. I had like 1 mouthful and I was done. I had that chocolate milk and that was it and then I headed to the gym. I was gonna walk like usual, but it was POURING. Cuz I'd slept late, my dad offered to give me a ride on his way to work, so things kinda worked out well like that.

At the gym, I decided to push it on the treadmill and was able to do 5Ks in 32:58. It was awesome but, like the last time I really pushed it on the treadmill, I spent the next several mins feeling a touch woozy and debating whether to run to the garbage can, the bathroom or just lie on the floor. After that, I decided to do about half the number of reps on various machines I use, did 30 mins on the recumbent(sp?) bike and then kinda called it a day at that point. On the way home, I popped into Walmart and picked up a large box of 324 diapers and 400 wipes (for my sister) and then carried them home. So, my arms got more of a work out and I burned 217 cals in 27 mins. lol

Afterward, a friend and I were gonna go swimming, but he fell asleep, so that didn't happen, but that's ok. I think I got a pretty decent amount of fitness for the day.

Mon. July 30

- Half a serving of complimentary chips and salsa (Lone Star)
- 4 small steak fajitas, w/cheese, lettuce and rice (Lone Star)
- Medium "candy shop" blizzard (DQ)
- 1/3 pulled pork pizza (Shoeless Joe's)(leftovers)
- Medium sized steak
- 2 strawberry cheesecake jello cups

Sun. July 29

- Half a spinach cheese dip app (Boston Pizza)
- Half a serving of spaghetti w/tomato sauce and cheese (Boston Pizza)
- Strawberry cheesecake jello cup
- Half a poutine app (Shoeless Joe's)
- 2/3 of a pulled pork pizza (Shoeless Joe's)
- Small vanilla frosty (Wendy's)

Sat. July 28

- Half a chicken quesadilla app(Jack Astor's)
- Chicken caesar salad(Jack Astor's)
- Chicken caesar salad(Wacky Wings)
- 11 boneless wings(Wacky Wings)
- Regular smartie McFlurry(McD's)

Not sure if I should consider today half good or mostly bad. Oh well.

Yum :)

Fri. July 27

- Small piece of grilled chicken w/BBQ sauce
- 4 strawberry pies (McD's)(leftovers)(Ya, I'm disgusting, I know)
- Two 80 cal jello cups
- A couple dozen cucumber slices
- About 1.5 cups of strawberry yogurt
- 80 cal jello cup
- 2 low carb banana "muffins"
- Small homemade smoothie (strawberries, bananas)
- 2 muffins; chocolate chip and blueberry (Tim Horton's)
- Cinnamon bun (Tim Horton's)

Another bad day. There's really no excuse for any of this. However, I did go for a run before work and was able to finish 5Ks in 33:42, which is great. So, my new goal is to get it under 33:30. Anyway, that's all I gotta say.

Me, as a toddler, getting my nutrients and stuff. lol

Thu. July 26

- Several spoonfuls of cherry yogurt
- Bagel w/peanut butter and grape jam
- Pepperoni and sausage pizza on a tortilla
- Several cucumber slices
- Several celery sticks
- Dieter's (cleansing) tea
- 2 servings of Crystal Light
- Small homemade smoothie (strawberries, banana)
- Several fries (McD's)
- Double quarter pounder, only ketchup, crispy onions, lettuce and cheese (McD's)
- Several chicken McBites (McD's)
- Chicken wing (Pizza Pizza)

Today was a little messed up. I was the same weight as yesterday, which wasn't great but at least I didn't gain. Then, I spent a couple hour at the gym and, while there, I was able to run 5K in 35:38, beating my personal best of 36:09. So, I'm hopping I can get down to 35 flat on my next go. I weighed myself when I got home and found I was down a pound. Woo! And what do I do after that? Make a tortilla pizza cuz the pepperoni and sausage is about to go bad. But I figured it wouldn't be a big deal cuz I was packing a pretty healthy lunch for work again. While at work, I only got to have my celery and cucumbers and a bit of my smoothie, which was fine. However, at the end of the night, we had some left over food that I decided to bring home. If I was gonna be bad like that, I probably should have made a smaller sandwich, but obviously, I didn't. Well, if I maintain or gain, then there's no one to blame but me and hopefully I will learn my lesson. I was even considering having some chocolate after all that, since I'd already F-ed up the day so bad. In for a penny, in for a pound, right? But I was able to convince myself that wouldn't fix anything and just make me feel worse. So, I'm just sticking to water for the rest of the night.

I'm on the fence about going to the gym tomorrow. I know I SHOULD, but you're supposed to rest your muscles so they can heal and grow. At the very least, I'll probably find some time to run before work and I'll eat a lot better. Anyway, wish me luck in the morning.

Wed. July 25

- Pizza sandwich (bread, cheese, tomato sauce, pepperoni, sausage)
- Small date square
- Crystal Light in water
- Several cucumber slices
- Several celery sticks
- Dieter's (cleansing) tea
- About a cup or so of cherry yogurt
- Large homemade smoothie (strawberries, banana)
- McDouble, only ketchup, crispy onions, lettuce and cheese (McD's)
- Orange

I was down 2lbs this morning. :)

First thing I do? Make myself a pizza sandwich. Next thing? Go for a run on my treadmill. lol.And I burned 451 cals in about 36 mins. That's about 80-90 cals more than when I run around my complex. So, I may need to use the treadmill more often, or step it up on my runs. lol. I also tried to be good and I think this was a fairly decent day. And I can only do better tomorrow. I was gonna run after work but it's raining right now and my parents sleep right near the treadmill. That's ok though. I go into work an hour later than usual tomorrow, so I have more time at the gym.

So, I'm gonna get to bed now and dream about being down another pound tomorrow. Here's hoping. lol

Tue. July 24

- Large homemade smoothie (straw, blue & raspberries, banana)
- Small date square
- Small low carb banana "muffin"
- A couple cups of broccoli
- Orange
- Diter's (cleansing) tea
- 80 cal Jello cup
- Another small low carb banana "muffin"

I dunno how I did it, but I was able to break even over the weekend. I haven't gained or lost any weight in the past few days, so I decided to try to be good and eat low cal foods and stuff. I was gonna go to the gym before work, but I really wanted more sleep, so I decided to go after work (which I did). Assuming I see some good results tomorrow, I might try a mainly yogurt and jello day with some pre-work gyming and post-work running. We shall see. I'm gonna need to touch up my roots and do my nails sometime soon too. Just gotta find the time. lol

Ya, lol

Mon. July 23

- 3 black plums
- Peach
- 250mL chocolate milk
- Medium homemade smoothie (straw, blue & raspberries, banana)
- Half a spinach cheese dip app (Montana's)
- 8 oz steak w/LOTS of carrots & broccoli and crispy onions (Montana's)
- Small strawberry cheesequake blizzard (DQ)

So, I got my tattoo today. It ended up taking a little longer than expected cuz my artist was having some pretty bad stomach pains and wasn't sure if she was gonna be able to continue. But she took a little break and was able to recover a bit and pull through get it done. I think it looks great. I'm gonna need to go back in the next several weeks for a touch up, but just for a couple minor things. I'll just leave it at that for today and post a pic of my tat. :)

 

Sun. July 22

- Medium portion of pulled pork
- 500mL bottle of flavoured sparkling water
- Cup of strawberry & banana frozen yogurt
- 2 jelly donuts covered in granulated sugar
- 2 small powdered donuts
- Small caesar salad
- (another) medium portion of pulled pork w/a little cheese
- Several mouthfuls of homemade smoothie (strawberries, raspberries, blueberries, banana)


I went to RibFest with a friend today. It was pretty good and not nearly as busy as the one I went to on Canada day. We ended up going around to 5 different vendors and got a pound of pulled pork from each. I could've really gone for a funnel cake or sno cone, but they were both a touch pricey, so I didn't either. We went swimming after and then for ice cream with a friend. I was able to resist the ice cream and get a frozen yogurt instead. The portion was kinda small, but I'm sure it was a proper portion is supposed to look like. lol. We went to Walmart after where I pulled up some more strawberries and bananas. (Mmmm, future smoothies. lol) So, good day for sure, I'd say. Oh, and I was able to walk all over RibFest in a pair of wedge heels without changing into my flip flops. Woo!

Anyway, time for bed now. I'm getting a tattoo in the morning and I need lots of sleep. :)

Yes!

Sat. July 21

- 2 s'more Poptarts
- Small freezie (20 cals)
- About 1.5 cups of broccoli, peas and rice w/a little soya sauce
- 2 black plums
- Peach
- Crystal Light in water
- Small date square
- 20 wings; 10 honey garlic, 10 medium & sweet and spicy thai (Wacky Wings)
- Half a plate of taco supreme poutine (Wacky Wings)

I was really rushed before work, so I needed something really quick. And, for dinner, I needed protein... and I wanted to indulge a little. Sue me. lol

Anyway, I was thinking at work today that I should have a few low calorie days soon; days where I eat less calories to make it easier to drop some pounds. Not everyday and not for a bunch of days in a row, just a day here and there. However, my plan for making this happen is not the healthiest. Sort of. I'd like to be able to do this by having days of only like smoothie and veggies and I intend to, but I was also considering doing days where I have mainly jello. 1 pre-made cup is 80 cals. If I had 10 in a day, that'd be only 800 cals; I burn more than that in like 5 or 6 hour at work and maybe like an hour at the gym. I'll probably try to throw in a bowl of soup or something, but for the most part, jello. lol. Gotta do this shit while I'm still young(ish) and stupid.

Yummy

Fri. July 20

- 400mL can of organic lentil soup
- Medium homemade smoothie (strawberries, banana)
- Egg, w/lots of whites
- 3 strips of bacon
- About 1.5 cups of broccoli, peas and rice w/a little soya sauce
- 2 black plums
- Peach
- Small orange freezie
- 16 twisty pretzels
- Small homemade smoothie (strawberries, blueberries, raspberries, banana)
- 80 cal strawberry jello cup
- Strawberry cheesecake jello cup

I was down another 2 lbs today. :) And today was fairly decent food wise, but I dunno if I'll be down another pound tomorrow. There were a couple times when I wanted to have a bit of chocolate, but I literally told myself "No, shut up, you don't want that. Get over it " and it worked fairly well. Gonna need to make that my mantra or something. lol

Thu. July 19

- Pizza sandwich (2 pieces whole wheat bread, tomato sauce, mozzarella, pepperoni, sausage)
- Black plum
- Watermelon chunks
- Watermelon flavoured dried fruit bar
- 80 cal orange jello cup
- Jello cheesecake cup (130 cals)
- About 2 cups of broccoli, peas and rice w/a little soya sauce
- Peach
- Crystal Light in water
- Dieter's (cleansing) tea
- Small homemade smoothie (strawberries, banana)
- Strawberry-banana flavoured dried fruit bar

Food was pretty decent, but the fitness coulda been a lot better. I was totally ready to go to the gym for a yoga/pilates/tai chi class, but my wrist was sooooo sore. It was pretty sore by the end of the day yesterday and this morning, it suuuuuuucked! I couldn't even do my bra up, so I spent the day in a sports bra. And I figured if I couldn't do that, I wouldn't be able to bench press anything or do various yoga poses, so it probably wouldn't be worth it. I did run after work though. I wasn't any faster, but I tried to throw some short sprints to really push myself. I can already feel soreness in my legs; the good kind of sore though. :)

Yup

Wed. July 18

- Oatmeal w/raisins
- Bagel w/peanut butter and strawberry jam
- About a cup of chocolate milk
- 80 cal grape jello cup
- 1 small piece of chocolate
- Broccoli cheddar soup (Moxie's)
- Small chicken caesar salad (Moxie's)
- 3 oatmeal raisin cookies

So, the day started as a decent food day but kinda tapered off a bit at the end/ However, I was pretty active today. Walked to the gym, spent a couple hours there, went to Walmart and picked up another pair of workout pants and a sports bra, peaches, plums, bananas, 3 bags of frozen broccoli and some more low cal jello cups, walked back home and then went swimming in the evening.

Also, I was down a couple pounds. They were pounds that I'd already and put back on, but I think this puts me at the lowest I've been in at least a couple weeks. So that's good. I just hope to be down another pound tomorrow, but we'll see.

Very good point!

 

Tue. July 17

- Pizza sandwich (2 pieces whole wheat bread, pasta sauce, mozzarella, pepperoni and sausage)
- Cadbury cream egg
- Terry's chocolate orange
- President's Choice general tao chicken frozen meal
- About 2 cups of pasta w/tomato sauce and a little sausage
- Crystal Light in water
- Dieter's (cleansing) tea
- Half of a large smoothie (banana, strawberries, blueberries, raspberries)
- 4 Lays wavy potato chips

Today did not start out well, but I feel better about it now.

I was gonna go to the gym, but it took me a while to get my stuff together and then I couldn't find my keys (which has my little scanner dealie on it) so I decided to stay home and clean and organize my room. After that, I worked 4-11 and when I got home, I went for a run again. I was able to keep track of my laps this time, so I know that I did 10 in about 37 mins and I burned 470 cals. :) Again, I kept a steady pace and didn't slow down to walk. This 5k is seeming less daunting now. (*whispers* I may even consider doing a 10k in the next year or so).  Holy hell, I never figured I'd turn into one of those people. lol

Anyway, I'm lying in bed now with sore feet and a less than stellar stomach situation, so I'm just gonna drink more water and go to bed.

(In case anyone noticed, I haven't been listing water in my food diary, but I promise, I'm drinking lots every day)

All sweaty from my run. Hot, right? :P

Mon. July 16

- Bowl of Corn Flakes in milk w/3 Splenda packets
- 7 small sour keys (14 cals a piece)
- Crystal Light in water
- Half a spinach cheese dip app (Boston Pizza)
- Penne w/bolognese sauce & cheese and garlic bread (Boston Pizza)
- Apple Crisp dessert (Boston Pizza)
- Blueberry muffin (Tim Horton's)
- Low call berry muffin (Tim Horton's)

Another lack luster day. At least I was able to go swimming today. And I have decent opportunities for physical activity this week. So, here's hoping.

Let;s see how many people can get both these references. lol

Sun. July 15

- Half a spinach cheese dip app (Kelsey's)
- Peppercorn burger w/fries and small cup of broccoli soup (Kelsey's)
- Small strawberry cheesequake blizzard (DQ)
- Chicken fingers w/garlic mashed potatoes (Jack Astor's)
- Jack Louis dessert, no chocolate sauce (Jack Astor's)

Not a good food day at all. :/

Well, I can only do better tomorrow (which is the plan). On the bright side, at one point today, I was thinking "I could seriously go for some chocolate" but I stopped and told myself "no, no I don't. Just move on" and I did. It also helped that I didn't have any chocolate on me, but still. lol

Yup, pretty much.

Sat. July 14

- Bowl of Corn Flakes in milk w/3 Splenda packets
- 400mL can of organic lentil soup
- Large homemade smoothie (strawberries, blueberries, raspberries)
- Mini chocolate cupcake
- Small grape freezie (20 cals)
- Small strawberry banana smoothie (McD's)
- Regular sized chocolate cupcake
- 3 potato skins
- A few small pieces of cheesy garlic bread (Montana's)
- 8oz steak w/lots of broccoli & carrots and onion straws (Montana's)
- Small "candy shop" blizzard (DQ)

Another hot and sticky day. And I spent most of it in a hot kitchen. After work though, I came home and cleaned up and then began the tedious process of deciding what to wear. I had that stereotypical "I have nothing to wear" girly moments. It wasn't cuz I have so few clothes and nothing was clean though cuz I have TONS of clothes; it was a matter of feeling bloated and having nothing look good. I completely realize it's my own fault. It's like all those "thinspiration" pix I see all over tumblr say, "the chocolate bar you've wanted for an hour or the body you've wanted your whole life?" Generally with me, the chocolate wins out. Or, I figure I'll work it off tomorrow or whatever, but clearly, that doesn't happen. I'm considering having a "NO" week where I basically grit my teeth and just willpower my way through my food cravings and stuff. Or maybe I need to do a cycle of my 11 day low carb diet. More time at the gym would probably help since I only got there once this week. Blah to me. :/

I knew it!

Fri. July 13

- Bowl of Corn Flakes in milk w/3 Splenda packets
- Bagel w/peanut butter and Nutella
- Cadbury cream egg (Ya, I still have a couple of these kicking around, lol)
- Americana pizza (Hoops Bar and Grill)
- Chicken Finger w/fries
- Medium vanilla milkshake

I saw Alice Cooper and Iron Maiden today. :)

It was also hot as all hell. I dunno if there was a time between 4pm and midnight that I wasn't sweating. Oh well. Better enjoy this weather while we can. Next thing you know, people will be bitching about the windchill and shoveling snow. lol

Rawr!

Thu. July 12

So, I was really tired at the end of this day and jotted down what I ate really quickly on Notepad, but didn't save it and my computer rebooted without my knowledge, so I lost the info and I can't remember everything. However, I decided to make a posting anyway cuz I was proud of something I did today.

First off, I really didn't want to go to the gym today, but I did it anyway. Then I had work from 4-11. I walked home cuz my dad didn't get off work in time to pick me up. Once I was home, I dropped my stuff, changed into my workout clothes and went for a run around my complex. I don't know how fast I was going; my guess would be like 4.5mph, but kept a steady pace. I didn't slow down to walk or anything. I went for over 30 mins and I think lapped my complex like 8 or 9 times. I was super sweaty afterward, but it was great. Definitely something I'll do again.

I think this image is super cute. :)

Wed. July 11

- Bowl of Corn Flakes in milk w/3 Splenda packets
- 2 Strawberry pies (McD's)(leftovers)
- Small date square
- 400 mL can of organic lentil soup
- About a cup of peach yogurt
- About 2.5 cups of fruit smoothie
- Crystal Light
- Several gummy bears
- Half a steak quesadilla w/cheese, tomatos, red and green peppers and green onions (The Mad Hatter pub)
- Butter chicken w/white rice and naan bread (The Mad Hatter pub)
- 4 low cal homemade applesauce oatmeal cookies
- 80 cal grape jello cup

Didn't do much calorie counting today. I did go swimming though. And my friend and I ended up randomly going to a restaurant we've never been to before and I got an Indian dish that I rarely get to eat. Fun times. Anyway, I'm tired and I need to be up early for the gym. :)

I don't like the pretzel component of this, but I'd be open to making these sometime.