Mon. May 12

Had my first day at my new job today.

It went pretty well, I think. The people seemed nice, I picked up on a bunch of stuff fairly quickly. My back's currently kinda sore, but that's the be expected. I figured the work would be more strenuous than my previous job, but I had no idea until the end of my shift. I wore my heart rate monitor cuz I was curious how many cals I'd burn, but I dunno if I could've imagined this: in 9 hours, I burned 2285 cals. Holy jeez. Dunno if everyday is gonna be like that, but I'll wear the monitor for the rest of the week and see what the results are. If that ends up being the average though, and I can bring my calorie intake down, I could see some serious changes. Speaking of which, I was gonna weigh myself this morning and see what my starting weight was and then see how much weight I'd loss after 1 week, 1 month, etc., but the scale wasn't in the bathroom this morning (long story). So, oh well. Just gonna keep an eye on the physical changes instead, I guess.

That's all for now. Probably gonna be getting to bed a lot sooner than usual tonight. I'll let you guys know how things progress in the coming weeks. :)

Sun. May 4

News! News! Big, good news!

I got a new job! Woo! It's at a t-shirt printing company and I think it's gonna be very good for weight loss journey. I'm gonna be working a lot more and, from what I've heard, the job is gonna be a lot more physical than my last job. It's also about twice the distance from house, so that means I'll be getting more of a workout when I walk or take my bike. And with all the hours I'll be working, that's less time for me to be sitting at home binging. I'll be bringing my own meals, of course, and I'll make sure they're healthy. My only concern will be being too tired to get to the gym. But I'll have to see how things play out and how I feel. I'm sure it'll take a bit of time to get used to, but I mainly excited for the change and to not have to hide my tattoos, or remove my piercings, or worry about the colour of my hair. I'm sure that lack of stress will help my waistline too.

Anyway, don't have too much to report on the weight loss front. I pretty much broke even last month; I weighed the same on April 1st as I did on May 1st, but I've been trying to do better. And, like I said, the new job should help.

So, that's it for now.  I don't start my new job til the 12th and I've already worked my last shift at my other job, so I have lots of time to get to the gym and get my standing stamina up before starting at the new company. :)

Wed. April 23

Looks like I've found a way to get a different type of exercise this spring/summer.

My dad was cleaning out the garage earlier today and pulled out my bike. I hadn't ridden a bike in years, but I figured I'd ride it to the gym and see if it's something I could get into again. And it definitely is. It seriously cut down on my travel time AND I burned more calories and used a few different muscle groups. Way better than using a stationary bike at the gym.

So, I had my weigh in today and it was about as bad as I thought it be. Can't change the past though. Been trying to be a little better though. I had salads yesterday and today and low-cal soup today as well. Nothing major, but little things are better than nothing. I also had a bunch of my smoothie today and killed it at the gym. Hopefully next week will be better.

One thing I've been thinking about doing lately is seeing if I can go 5 days or a week without meat. Part of me thinks it's a good idea cuz you can totally survive without it. Those weirdo vegans do and they're skinny as hell. On the other hand, your body doesn't store protein, so if you eat too much, it's not gonna make you fat the way carbs do. And you need protein to build muscle, which I am trying to do. Hmm, might have just talked myself outta that idea. Maybe no carbs for those days instead. I've also been wanting to do days where I only have one type of food. Like only oatmeal, or yogurt, or just smoothies and veg. Gonna need to be a day that I don't get together with friends (for food) and where I have work, so I won't be sitting at home, wanting to binge on everything. Or I could make a rule for myself: no cheats 2 days in a row. For that, I'd try to be as good as possible, but if I do have a cheat meal/snack, I can't have a cheat the next day. There has to be at least one day of clean eating between being bad. *sigh* So many get thin quick "schemes". If only I had the balls to put them into action. :/

Anywho, time for bed. Asses and names aren't going to kick and take themselves tomorrow. lol

Tue. April 22

Old habits die so hard.

I've been trying to do better, but it's hard. I've definitely been eating how and what I used to; stuff that's really caused me to pack on the pounds. However, I dunno if I'm getting older, or if my body's trying to tell me that it's not putting up with this anymore. Last Tuesday, I ate a crapload of chocolate and gummies before bed and woke up thinking I was gonna throw up. Then, on Saturday, I had a decent breakfast/lunch, ate a bunch of sweets again, and by the time I had a really late dinner, I was feeling pretty sick again. This worried me partly cuz I hate being sick like that, but also cuz I was going to a buffet on Sunday afternoon. It looked like my stomach recovered fairly quickly though, cuz I didn't feel sick at all after the buffet. I actually probably coulda gone for a couple more plates of food, and I didn't appear to eat any less than I usually do. But anyway...

I feel like my work outs aren't as good as they've been in the past. I've been increasing the weight on my hand weights and weight machines, and I've been using the same cardio equipment for the same amount of time, but it seems like sometimes my heart rate doesn't get as high as it used to. Maybe it's cuz I've been going after work more recently and I'm already a little worn out from that (as opposed to going shortly after I've woken up). Or I need to up my resistance during my cardio. I'll see. At least any work out is still better than no work out. Kinda debating if I'm gonna go today. I went after work last night (at 11:30) and my thighs seem pretty sore today. Definitely gonna make a batch of smoothies today. Maybe I'll do that right after this and see how I feel.

Well, that's all. Weigh in tomorrow and I do not have high hopes.

Post buffet, lol

Wed. April 16

I feel like crap.

I know I've been eating pretty poorly for the last several days and I feel like it. I also weighed myself this morning and was up several pounds. On top of that, I had a bunch of chocolate and gummy candies last night and thought that I was gonna throw up several hours later. Why do I keep doing this to myself? -.- And, ya know what? I'm super excited to be going to Mandarin with my parents on Easter and stuffing my face. *sigh*

In other (slightly good) news, I got a 15 cent raise at work. And then, in June, minimum wage goes up, so I'll be making another $1/hr once that happens.

Ok, that's all.

Fri. April 11

Why do I keep going for long periods of time without blogging? If was this lazy in my weight loss, I wouldn't be as far as I am.

Anyway, let's get down to business. So, my birthday was this past Tuesday. I went out clubbing on Saturday night and then had a big dinner out on Wednesday. Both events were fun and it was nice to be able to hang out with some friends I don't get to see very often. I wasn't able to reach a mini weight goal I had set for myself for my BDay, but I got pretty close. I'm now bouncing between having lost 23-25lbs in total. I guess this is why you're only supposed to weigh yourself like once a week. Otherwise, your weight can be all over the place and it's hard to see the progress. But I really shouldn't complain. Slow and steady still wins the race.

I was talking to a friend recently who's been working on losing weight after having a baby and she just got to her goal weight. She looks good and all that and it got me thinking about my current goal weight. If I have approximately 6lbs left to lose and about 10lbs lost equals a dress size smaller, I'm definitely gonna have to re-evaluate my goal once this is all said and done. Like, I'll probably set myself a new goal of losing another 10lbs and then another 10 after that, instead of setting myself the daunting task of having to lose another 20-25 in one shot. I feel like I can do it. I just know it's only gonna get harder from here.

I think that now that all my birthday stuff has calmed down, it's time to refocus and really put a lot more effort into my weight loss, but mostly, just the eating properly. Lots of healthy stuff is gonna be on sale in the coming weeks and months. And I really need to stop looking at menus when I go out to eat. I know the healthier options for all the restaurants I frequent. I just need to order a salad ASAP so I'm not tempted by other delicious things. And I need to keep reminding myself that all my cravings are just cravings. I can live without them and try to not be an emotional bitch when I don't have chocolate or ice cream. Seriously. lol

I think that's all I'd like to say right now. REALLY gonna try hard to post something at least every few days. Even if it's very short. Alright everyone, enjoy your weekend. :)

Updated lol

Sun. March 16

I coulda sworn I'd posted a blog entry at least once this month. Apparently not though. Sorry guys.

Alright, so, first things first. As of Friday, I'd lost 21lbs since new years. Obviously, I'm very happy about this, but I'd just like to acknowledge something for those who may not know. Losing weight is not a steady decline. There can be a lot of ups and downs on the scale. For me, once I see that new lowest weight, that's the number that I stick with until the next lowest. Now, there actually hasn't been that much fluctuation for me in a while cuz I've been doing my best to eat well. But things like a full bladder or not having a bowel movement for a couple days can make it seem like you've put on weight or not lost any. This is why people say to pay attention to the inches more than the scale. And I've been trying to, but it's hard to not want to know. It's a constant struggle, but I have seen the inches get smaller, so at least I know I'm on the right track.

Ok, so, the game plan for this coming week is to make a huge batch of smoothie with added spinach as a low cal filler, go to the gym like 4 times, buy a lot of grapes cuz they're finally on sale (lol), and continue to purge all my really old Cosmo magazines. When I was cleaning the crap outta my room last weekend, I decided to start getting rid of some of my old Comsos. And when I say old, I mean it. My first copy (which I just came across yesterday) is from May '04. But mostly I have issues from about 2006 and on. What I've been doing is going through each issue really quick and tearing out any pics or articles I want to keep, but there haven't been too many of those. Overall, it feels good to be freeing up that space and de-cluttering my room a little.

I think that's all I have to say for now. Hope everyone has a good St. Paddy's day. My mom wants to go to a bar for green beer. It's kinda uncharacteristic for her, but whatever. lol

Yummy!