Wed. May 8

Finally got back to the gym tonight.

It felt good and the week off didn't seem to affect my strength all that much. I still wasn't able to use my heart rate monitor though. I hope the replacement batteries get here soon.

Anyway, it seems like one of the upsides to being sick is that for the first few days, I was more concerned with getting better rather than stuffing my face. After that, cuz my nose was kinda plugged up, I couldn't really taste much, so there was no point sitting around, eating sweets. I've also started keeping food and exercise diary through myfitnesspal.com. I find it's been fairly decent so far, but it's obviously not a super exact thing. I'll see how long I can keep it up for though.

Still not feeling 100% back to myself, but I'm getting there. And I'm definitely much better than I was last weekend.

Guess I'm a big slut. lol

Fri. May 3

I'm sick.

I knew it would be hard to stick to a diet on the weekend, but being sick is gonna make it that much harder. From what I can tell, it seems like the flu. I've got body aches all over, a minor headache, fatigue and, last I checked, a fever of 38.5 celsuis (101 F?). So, I've been taking a bunch of pain meds and resting as much as I can. I seem to be slightly better at the moment, but I dunno if that's cuz I'm actually getting better or the T3 I took earlier is finally working. I'll leave it at that for now so I don't overexert myself and get worse. At least I have decent timing; I don't have work again til Monday.

Kelly Osbourne after losing 70lbs. You go, girl.

Wed. May 1

That's it!

I'm using all of my will power and starting tomorrow, I'm starting the FatLoss4Idiots 11 day diet. The diet claims that you can lose about 9lbs in those 11 days and I've done it before and actually had some pretty decent results. Hopefully, 2 successful cycles of this eating regiment will have me down 15 or so lbs by month end. Unfortunately, I'm not gonna go into specifics cuz I had to pay to access the website with all the info and menu planner and stuff and it's not fair to the company or me to just give their secrets away. I will say that it doesn't present itself as a no or low carn diet, but there's only one day that you're allowed to have bread. It also has you eating certain things at certain times, but otherwise, it's actually fairly healthy in terms of portion sizes and the emphasis on fruit, veggies and lean meats. It probably doesn't bode well for me to start this right before a weekend, but I'm really gonna try my darnedest.

All that being said, I actually had a pretty good workout tonight after work. Felt good, lifted heavy, was pretty flexible. I also got in several sets of squats at work. lol. And I got an email saying my heart rate monitor batteries have shipped. Thank God.

Lastly, I can't wait to get a new tattoo, but I'm not really sure what yet, but I have a ton of ideas that need to get started.

That is all. Night night.

Gonna give this a try.
Fun fact: If you do all the squats listed here, you'll have done 5000 squats by month end.

Tue. April 30

Sleepy, but blogging.

Wouldn’t weight loss just be so much easier if someone could tell you exactly what to do for the exact results you wanted? I mean, obviously, eating proper portions of healthy food at proper times and being physically active is good for you, but I sometimes feel like there are too many variables. The human body is a weird and wonderful thing. What I’m getting at is I just wish there was some way to be exact about this whole process. Some days, I eat pretty well and work out and see little to no change. Other days, I don’t work out and indulge in a little chocolate before bed and I’m down like 2lbs. What the hell? I just need/want/would love to have some psychic fitness mind reader to say “eat this specific thing, do this specific work out and you will 150% surely see this specific result you want.” Obviously, this lack of knowing is not a big enough deterrent to actually make me say “F it” and give up; it would just be a lot easier to stick to if I knew it was gonna work. Le sigh.

In other news, my heart rate monitor has been giving me really in accurate readings. I finally hypothesized that maybe it’s cuz the battery is low, but it has no way of letting me know this. So, I ordered a new set of batteries for it and hopefully they’ll get here soon and will fix the problem.

Also, I sorta tried to do a partial “low cal” day. It turns out that an entire jar of (WalMart brand) unsweetened apple sauce is only 318 cals. Just throw in a bunch of cinnamon and you’re good to go. I only ate about half of it, as well as some cucumber slices and an orange at work today for dinner and snack. Here’s hoping for results. I had a thought about how to lower the cals on the yogurt I like. A whole 650mL container is like 700+ calories. Now, if I can find a plain yogurt, with very few cals, I can just combine the 2 and then divide the mixture in half and hopefully reduce the portion calories by like… maybe 300-ish? I dunno. This is something to be experimented with, but I’m hopefully. I just need yogurt to go on sale sometime soon. C’mon summer. lol

5 weeks til Ke$ha, 21lbs to lose.

My sexy new lifting gloves. lol

Sun. April 28

Some of the reasons why certain fitness/lifestyle changes won't work for me...

- The only way I'll eat salad is with caesar dressing. I mean, I get it on the side, but I don't do balsalmic vingarettes and all that disgusting shit, so that's never an option for dressing.
- I haven't had pop in over 2 years, so I can't "cut it out".
- Tea is nasty. I won't drink it and that's that.
- Greek yogurt is pretty nasty too. I've recently seen commercials for greek yogurt with blueberries, so I may give it a try, but otherwise, no.
- I don't do fish. VERY rarely, I'll have fish sticks or tuna or fish and chips. But that is a SUPER rare occurrence. So, salmon and other good fishy things are not going to happen.
- I also don't do quinoa, or kale, or melons, or cantaloupe, or pesto, or raw blueberries, or avocados, or lots of good fruits and veggies. I'm a fairly picky eater.
- I love meat, so vegetarians and vegans can go F themselves, cuz that's never gonna happen either.
- I rarely go out drinking, so I can't cut that back.
- And I don't drink coffee or any coffee based drinks, so no cutting back on that.
- I generally walk at least one way to work and I'm on my feet for several hours a day. It's not like I'm slacking off, sitting in a chair at a desk all day or anything.

I completely understand that I'm fair from perfect (both in my food choices and work out frequency), but just seems like whenever I found a list of "10 things to help you lose weight" or whatever, like at least half of them don't apply to me. It's just frustrating. I really wish weight loss was like 70% fitness and 30% food instead of vice versa.

Wed. April 24

Ok, so, this is the thing I wanted to talk about last night. Please note that I realize some of the things I'll mention are less than healthy, but I'm just "thinking" out loud.

So, I've noticed in the past several days my weight has crept up a bit. I'm not gonna pretend I have no idea why. I know I've been eating more than I should of "unhealthy" foods. It's the story of my life and it's a daily struggle. Recently though, I've been really putting more thought into... I don't even know what I would call this... low cal food days? Basically, they would be days every now and then where I would only eat a couple different types of food, but that's what I would eat for every meal. Like a day of only oatmeal low cal jello or cucumbers and yogurt or just granola bars. For example, the granola bars I eat are 110 cals each. 2000 cals (that should be eaten daily) divided my 110 is like 18 granola bars. So, on that day, I know my limit is like 18 or 19 granola bars and that's all I'll eat for that day. And the less bars I can eat, the fewer calories I'll have to burn. I know there are better ways to go about this, I just feel like I'm relapsing a little here and need a kick in the butt. Like, I'm one of those people who needs to see some initial results to get motivated. If I'm legit putting in the effort and seeing little to no results, that doesn't fly with me. I still have yet to have a day like this though mainly cuz my willpower sucks, but if I see another few pounds in the next week or so, I just might try one of my ideas.

In other news...
- I ordered a new digicam online and it should hopefully be here in several days
- I did about 40 squats at work (where no one could see me) cuz I was bored and it was kinda quiet
- I'm looking into buying some OTC sleep aids to use once in a while cuz I feel like my sleep schedule is getting a little outta hand
- I am anxiously awaiting a (most likely) $1500+ tax refund in the mail
- I can't wait for the weather to get better and for yogurt to go on sale sooooo bad
- Not sure if I mentioned this but the 5K I ran last year will be taking place on Oct 6 this year and I'm definitely going to be running it again, Hopefully I'll break my 31:30 time from last year.

K, that's it that's all. My right heel is feeling really tender, so I hope some sleep will make it feel better for the gym in the morning.

Tue. April 23

Why does this shit always happen to me? -.-

I won't go into a lot of detail; I'll just give you the gist. Went to see Kat Von D at Chapters, waited in line for 4 hours, did my make up and got a little dressed up, wrote her a nice fan letter while on line, got my chance to finally meet her, told her I'd seen her 4 times and I'd lost 25-30lbs since I last met her, she complimented me and said I looked good and we talked health and fitness for a few seconds, she signed me book, hugged me a few times, we took a pic and I went on my way. I checked the pic right after and the Chapter's employee had taken it landscape instead of portrait, but it still showed us from the waist up, so I could deal. But something didn't feel right, so I uploaded it to my laptop, looked at a bigger version of it and it's blurry. It's FUCKING blurry. I'm so pissed. I mean, you can make out who we are, but the pic is blurry and, somehow, we still both have visible red eye. Fuck my life. I completely understand that in the grand scheme of things, there are much worse things at could've happened, but this is heartbreaking and upsetting. And Lord knows when she'll be back in TO. So, this solidifies 2 decisions I'd been considering: I need (and will very soon purchase) and new digital camera and I'm getting a tattoo that says "Jinxed", cuz honestly, I'll feel like I am. If I end up with a blurry pic after spending $275 to see Ke$ha, I. Will. Be. Livid!

I do have something else I wanna talk about, but I feel like this'll just turn into a really long post and the 2nd topic isn't as important. Maybe I'll talk about it next time. I'll just research cameras before bed.

*bangs head against wall*

Me, in line, after doing my make up

When the pic is smaller, it doesn't seem so bad, but when it fills my laptop screen, it makes me want to crawl under my covers and sleep for a week. -.-