Fri. November 23

I think I might need to make eating salads a restaurant only thing from now on.

I bought some romaine lettuce a couple days ago, so I decided to have a salad for dinner tonight. I added a little cheese, threw a couple pieces of bacon in the microwave (for crumbling) and had the dressing on the side for dipping. Everything about it was fine, except the dressing. It hadn't gone bad, it just didn't taste good. And this is not the first time this has happened.

Whenever I would have salad at home in the past, the only dressing brand we had was Kraft. It was alright-ish, but then tried the Renee's brand and liked that much better. But, in the last little while, I've started to dislike that brand too. I've probably mentioned this before, but the only salad I will eat is caesar. Ranch would probably be an extreeeeeemly far 2nd choice. But there are some restaurants who have caesars I really like; Wacky Wings, Jack Astor's, Kelsey's. I went to Applebee's last night and got the salad and the dressing really left something to be desired. I should ask these restaurants what brands they use and see if sell them in stores. Or maybe see what other brands are out there and if I can find one for home use that I find palatable. We'll see.

On a side note, my friggen wrist is hurting again today. Balls!

Pretty much. lol

Thu. November 22

Sometimes, I really dunno how to start these things.

So, since figuring out approximately how many days til Cuba, I had actually put on a few lbs. I'm not gonna act like I dunno where I those lbs came from. I know me and my eating are extremely far from perfect. But I was able to lose those few lbs and I was decent-ish tonight, so I'm hoping for a little more of a loss tomorrow. A problem I've had for the last couple weeks is not really having any "good" food in the house to choose from. However, I went to the grocery store yesterday during my break and picked up some yogurt, apples, oranges, lettuce, celery, roast beef and bananas. So, that should help with my food options. I haven't been too consistent with the gym either. Between painful feet, hanging with friends and baby stuff, it just hasn't been easy. I honestly don't see next week being any easier too. That being said, It looks like I'll be "on vacation" from Dec 3-12. I'm really gonna do my best to kill it at the gym and get my shit in that time. Maybe I'll make it a week and a half to just bit the bullet and drop several lbs.

Anyway, that's all for now. I'm kinda tired and hungry and a little bitchy, so I should go. lol

Laterz

Tue. November 13

So, at this point there's about 93 days til I would leave for Cuba.

Based on my weight this morning, that means I have 93 days to drop 16-26lbs. This may not seem like a lofty goal, but when you have poor self discipline like me, it's not gonna be so easy. 26 divided by 93 comes out to about .2lbs a day. Easier said than done when you consider you either need to cut calories and abstain from junk food and make sure that you work out enough for that whole period of time OR really cut the cals and step it up at the gym right away and have to maintain the weight loss OR really cut the cals and step it up at the gym just before I leave. I haven't decided which plan of attack I'll take.

And I've been meaning to do better every day. Like, today, I had a no carb breakfast.. then a few small pieces of chocolate (no biggie).. then had a hot dog..  then had a chimichanga and rice followed by 2 cherry cheese danishes. So ya, that's a fair representation of almost every day. :/
I think I could really benefit from some meal planning. Gonna have to spend the next couple days figuring this out and hoping I can stick to it.

Also, between my feet tattoos and babysitting, I didn't get to the gym today. Trying not too beat myself up about that though.

My new tats from an MSI song. Hoping to add shading and filigree soon.

Wed. November 7

Feeling really tired and pretty crappy right now.

I had a bit of chocolate and candy and chips before dinner. Everyone was free in the evening, so we all went to Lone Star. I didn't really eat more than I usually would, but all the crap I ate beforehand certainly didn't help.

Right after, I had my dad drop me off at the gym and I figured I wouldn't be all that productive cuz of how I was feeling, but I did alright. On Monday night, I had another (unintentional) "crappy food" night; I got home from work at 7, intending to go to the gym later that night and for about a good hour I kinda pigged out on chips and garlic bread and noodles. I still went to the gym and decided to make it a 1000 calorie night. Basically, I didn't care how long it took, I wasn't gonna call it a night til my heart rate monitor told me I'd burned 1000 calories. And I did that in just under on hour and a half. So, I tried to make that my goal tonight. I spent my time fighting stitches in my side and trying to keep my dinner down, but I was able to burn about 935 in almost the same amount of time. Note to self: Never work out on a full stomach like that again! I'm still dealing with my stomach even as I'm lying in bed. Just taking small sips of water and trying to breathe calmly.

So, anyway, I have not been doing well at all. I've put on several-ish pounds in the last little bit. On top of that, I was basically the same weight this year for Halloween as I was last year. Fitness-wise, that's a whole fucking year down the toilet. I can't even say like I lost 20lbs and gained it back or whatever. No, I've made like no progress and I'm very disappointed in myself. That being said, I know I'm stronger physically and pretty have better lung capacity and cardio stamina, but I have no idea about body fat percentage or anything like that. As far as I can tell, I don't see any inches lost anywhere, but I dunno.

I'm gonna need to grab a calendar and figure how many days and weeks til Cuba (in mid Feb) and make a plan. At this point, I'd just like to be down 10lbs, but I'm sure if I just grit my teeth and get it done, I could be down like 20 and I would love nothing more to just strut around the resort and pool beach area in a bikini with total confidence and without a care in the world. Help me, Je-bus. lol

Ok, bedtime. Gonna try to make it to the gym before I see SUM41 downtown tomorrow night, but my main priority is to get to the bank and set up a better retirement plan that'll see me with over $1M when I retire. Good times. lol

My costume this year.

Sun. October 28

I'm pretty tired right now but I realize it's been close to a week again since my last post, so I better write something. Just gonna keep it short and sweet and to the facts.

- I'm in Massachusetts right now. We left on Saturday (technically) at 4am, drove down and we're heading home tomorrow in the morning.

- I haven't been eating REALLY bad, but not all that good either. I'm scared to step on the scale when I get home.

- Assuming I don't lose any additional weight between now and Halloween, I'll pretty much be the same weight I was last year. What a waste of a year. :(

- If I'd really been determined, I could've used the gym at the hotel at least 3 times during our stay, but as it stands, I have not (and probably will not) go once.

- I still have a bunch of pumpkin stuff and prepping to do before Halloween. Not sure how much time I'll be able to get at the gym between now and then, but here's hoping.

- I'll still be dressing as a bunny regardless. And as much as I worry I'm gonna look like "the fat girl trying to be hot", I really am more concerned about how shitty the weather is probably gonna be. :/

- I had actually been really good for the days leading up to MA with my eating and gyming, but like I said, I'm sure that's all down the drain. Maybe I'll stick to just salad and cereal when I get home. lol

I think that's all for now. Wish me luck when I get home.

Vampire test. Looks like I passed. lol

Mon. October 22

Well, I had quite the weekend.

On Friday morning, I was down that 0.4lbs I wanted, which was awesome. Tried to be good during the day and then after work, I went out for a friends BDay. I just had one drink and then went to Wendy's afterward. Apparently, the burger I ordered was like 800 cals and I got fries with it. *face palm* So, I figured I'd be up quite a bit by Saturday morning.

I'll try to give you just the facts in regards to Saturday. I woke up at about 1pm, kinda hung around til a bit after 4 and then headed home to get ready for the Marlies hockey game I was going to at 7. I weighed myself since I hadn't had anything to eat yet and I was exactly the same as Friday morning. I knew it wouldn't last, but I figured I'd enjoy it while I could. From there, this is what my food day looked like...

5:30pm - breakfast - 2 oatmeal raisin cookies and chocolate milk
8-ish - lunch - poutine w/pulled pork on it
11:30 - dinner - pot roast soup followed by deep fried cheesecake.

Ya, no wonder I felt bloated for most of Sunday. We went to Wonderland that day and at least I spent a decent portion of the day walking or standing on my feet, but that was all probably totally ruined by the fact my dad wanted to eat at the buffet they offered. It was $20 ($16 for seniors) and they wasn't too many options, but I tried to do my best to get our money's worth (read: lots of pizza and dessert). My next meal wasn't any better; I had 2 cherry cheese danishes from Tim Horton's. So... ya...

Today was better, kinda. Cheerios for breakfast, steak for lunch, orange and granola bar for snacks and a triple cheeseburger (lots of lettuce, one slice of cheese) before I hit the gym. I was able to go a full 30 mins at 5mph and talked to a friend almost the whole time. It really helped distract me so the time just kinda flew by. So, we'll have to see if I've redeemed myself in the morning after a good sleep.

Anyway, I think this is gonna be the game plan from here on out: minimal carbs and try to only have them earlier in the day, gym whenever I can, lots of water and next to no sweets. At this point, I know I'm not gonna drop like 10lbs by Halloween, but at least I'll have put in the effort and will hopefully see results.

Fat and muscle. Same weight, but clearly different sizes.

Thu. October 18

Whoa. Did not realize it had been a week since my last post. Sorry.

Anyway, good-ish news to report. I really tried to watch what I ate on Tuesday and had a pretty good work out after work and on Wednesday morning, I was down like 3lbs, which put me at the lowest I've been in a while. So, I decided to again be careful to eat only good things and went to the gym for an hour after work yesterday. I weighed myself this morning and there had been no change. I guess I should be happy I didn't gain, but even a minimal weight loss would've been nice. I've been pretty exhausted the last couple nights I've gone to the gym, so I'm kinda considering not going tonight, but I probably should. If I could just drop like 0.4lbs today, I'd be satisfied. I'll see how me and my feet feel though.

The next couple fitness challenges that I know of (and want to participate in) are the CN Tower climb in April and the Mississauga Marathon in May. Now, I'm no where near being ready to do a marathon, but I am thinking about doing the 10K option. I have like half a year to prepare for those, so I think it's doable. I've discovered the "speed interval" setting on the treadmills at the gym and have used it the last few times I've gone. Just for those that don't know, you pick 2 different speeds to walk/jog/run at and then push a button to switch between the 2 for bursts of speed; both for working on endurance, speed and increasing your heart rate for better calorie burning. I've also started using the stair master. The first time I used it (this week) I had just given blood and could only do about 4 mins before I got the "something doesn't feel right" feeling and had to stop. The next time I did it, I got the same feeling at the 4 minute mark, but just pushed through it and finished my 10 mins. Last night, I did another 10 and was able to do like 39 floors. The CN Tower has 114 (1776 steps), so still got a ways to go, but I'll get there.

Um, I think that's all to report right now. I'm going to a Marlies game on Saturday, which I'm excited for and then Wonderland on Sunday and then next weekend, we're off to Boston and Salem for a couple days. Fun fun. :)

I am the master of balance. lol